The awesumest Barney Stinson!

The best video I've seen in 5th season...


A Must watch!
And do suit up while watchin! :p

A mother can do anything for her child

I saw this female travellin wid me @Mumbai local's, very tired and she has 2 boy kids...Both cryn 2 d core and this female so xhausted got no place in d speeding train, heavy pourin rain and packed compartment rocking her baby to sleep. Later her other kid comes and they all lie together and the mom keeps them covered and wrapped in their arms protecting them from public shoes stamps!

Hats off to Mothers who do everything to make their children safe and happy!
:)

Avie!

WISH!

As every1 of you know I’m so talkative…hahaha…I can talk about things I like, things I so dislike, things in general and things randomly no1 understands…I can talk talk and talk and trust me in a loud pitch without any energy supplement…Beat that..ahan! Mostly I like to talk about My World….be it twitter, myspace, blogs, facebook, textz and IMz…I am so an open book baby! But 2de im gonna write about a small word which means a lot to every1 even when sum1 is happy and even whn sum1 is sad….During happiness you want it 2 last 4ever like it is…and when Sad you want things to change 2 happiness….In the end you Want, be it a change or stability…You WISH things to stay the happy way or get better…But every1 WISHES…. Wish depends upon people to people…Beggers wish for money, poor people wish for 2wice a day’s meal, illiterate wishes for knowledge, farmers for good yield, people suffering from AIDS wish 4 a miracle, Old people wish not to die and watch theirs next ++ generations, Girls in the rural areas wish for freedom, a business man wishes for Profit ++, every1 wishes for wisdom and money in short….. Some people wish for life…The reason maybe a non-terminating disease or lost faith, it maybe some human or some strong principles, it can be a missing body part or unbearable sufferings of one’s loved…A tear in every1’s eye maybe be there but various reasons…. fighting the truth and wishing for a miracle….Even if a girl goes through the worst situations in her life that she has no option except death she should once think of the one’s who r craving to live…I don’t say life gives you what you want or is good or even worth living….but giving it a try is not bad! Like one thinks of trying vodka, cigars, drugs, girls/guys, love , unsuccessful attempts…You should try life once with all d love and positivity inside…Trust me I have tried…It’s hard but not impossible…Still if life doesn’t work out the way you want then its up2 you! Many people wish for clothes, my younger sister when asked to wish, she wished for a t.v. in her room…hahaha..different people different wishes….some want to change school, class, parents, hostel, husband, teachers, houses and always wish for a better one…Every1 who wishes for himself/herself always wishes for better and best… But do the wishes really come true??? I wont count Luck as a factor here….just a little voice in my head says…the wishes are all recorded in a long wish book ….every1 every second makes a wish and everything is recorded her…but the so many people wish so many things and only 1 wish provider, it cant fulfill all the wishes at that very time…So the wishes which come with the expiry dates get exhausted and never fulfilled if it doesn’t reach the wish provider’s knowledge and the rest are still being processed and many processed….I don’t know who wishes what but a standard wish is always a smile on a person’s face…A joker cries from within but makes every1 in audience smile…FYI I am not a joker but I would like to make every1 smile…whenever I could and whatever I can haan…. So a free hug with hilarious video for every1 down to smile at… Guys I wish, you wish and every1 wishes…No matter if it is a gin, shooting star, wishing well, or a still empty pot…It’s just the belief…not the thing u look at and wish… This blog is just based upon the song AIRPLENES with the most b’ful lines… “Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars…I could really use a wish right now, wish ryt now, a wish right now!” I wish all the people who want to live…their wish should come true. The poors and depressed people’s wish should come true… I wish PEACE would wrap our planet like a blanket so thay every1 stays warm and loving! This one is for the people who are under depression and stopped smiling due to the worst things encountering them.
And this is for all the kids suffering from hunger, un-curable diseases and lost hope!

I hope that your wishes come true… Love Avie XOXO The worst conditions where humans wished: http://www.funonthenet.in/forums/index.php?topic=116940.0 http://phukettsunami.blogspot.com/ http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/s/survivor5.htm http://www.cry.org/ http://www.coolantarctica.com/Antarctica%20fact%20file/science/global_warming.htm http://www.countercurrents.org/gathia090708.htm

~Change~

Felling warmth under my blanket, lyin on my bed....The new me...Sometimes i wonder how many times i change myself for good...hahaha..feels i was so bad...but No it aint like that....I just go thru various xperiences and weirdo things in my life...so many things in life are confusin gawd....esp when its about what humans around u look at you and think...
Wohhaa! A new smell in the air...maybe its my new perfume...hahaha...not really its just my change...Metamorphosis...
Past 2 months i didnt blog...Honestly not coz i was busy....it was coz i was confussed and i needed time to make my life trouble free and my mind empty with the wrongs....
Changes~
Studies:
Hahaha! well dis sem like other sems i worked hard but destiny...wooops!lets not talk about it....i believe in karma..oh yea...whatever i'll get i accept but dis tym i studied in a different way...it was different..yeah! it was...lets see if this works....Changes u c...
I sometimes wonder what i read neva cums iin xam or mayb sum sorrta craps in paper or lucky or wodever...All i knw 2de, after metamorphosism is that wodever i do i wont waste time and give what i can....and rest i'll take it the way i get and it comes...2 much think makes things worse...Everything has 2 happen which i write everyday in my life in different ways...so lets just take it that way and move forward...Yup! +ve! and it feels good!
Relationships:
This one ive never been so concrete and clear in mah head ever....I have realized a lotta things...I meet a new person everyday and we talk and becum gud friends easily and thn if both r single it feels like maybe....
but honestly its not the maybe...its just imfactuation or crush or wodever but definatly not love at all....how do i knw dat...I meet so many people and i wonder always maybe...and the other person also thinks maybe...but the thing is i never get that feeling wid sum1 like i had b4...and dats the point whn i sud relaize or now i realize that v ver just gud frnds and if v had tat clarity we wud still be friends...the worst if that if i like sum1 i go tell that person coz im true and i speak my mind all the time but this calls out 4 trouble in dis vcase coz the other person thinks i love taht person...when i say i like u for long or ive been looking at u or checkin u out doesnt mean tat i love u ...it just means u r in my mind and u cross my mind frequently and that u r a real gud friend...if i wud have feelings i wud just go and tell u maybe it worth living wid u coz ive started 2 have feelings...so ryt now i am so not a confuzed person and tat i think i am happy 2 realize the fact that i will w8 4 d ryt 1 i actually have feelings 4 rather than just going out wid ny1...just coz its fun and i smile...duh!
Music:
listenin 2 em a lot dese days and i kinda like almost all genrez...im pracicyn warmups and many exercyzez 2h and i guess i bcum a lil more serious


to be continued...in hurry will be back

I am A wonderful Human!

Now everything in life comes with time… if you go grab it within time…its yours…else its gone keep you wondering why…
Life is weird…when we over estimate ourselves we get nothing…and like me if u underestimate yourself, you again get nothing…But how do you know which is the level you are at…
My best friends and my mom always say that I take things negatively and that I always underestimate myself…well they were right. A message from my best friend one night changed my thinking…Like a selfish pig I always want her to stay with me and be by my side….so I agreed to do what she suggested me to…She is never wrong and her 6th sense is SO never wrong…Whatever she’s been telling me from past 8 months just came true…Anyways, I never believed her coz I never thought I was good enough or positive in thinking…
Something’s in the past few weeks were good as well as bad… Now I honestly don’t know what I thought was wrong or right…I hide my emotions is true and I am okay with it….Well wait a minute I guess not…I have realized that…but I am still wondering and working upon it…if I should let it show or not…
Sometimes you want something and you hope it would be with you with time…or maybe you hope that the things may go the way they are without any disturbance and the moment going on could last long enough to make things strong for it to last longer in future. Most of the people don’t think that way and hence that moment crashes with needs and falls apart, leaving us with nothing…
When the things you hate the most revolves around you to make you feel worse again and again…the pain inside starts to fade away or maybe we get use to it and feel numb... I am in such a situation right now… Everything in my life now, honestly SUCKS….nothing is falling into place….I am in a total lost situation….Like even if you are having a single problem or two is okay but in my case I am bombarded with at least 12-13 problems now… All the things I wanted, want and will want have slipped away… I have had dreams of all my 13 problems to be fulfilling but some friends broke the trust, some people didn’t approach, some figures went wrong, time wasn’t right, I haven’t put in much effort, chose wrong people, chose wrong ways, kept things inside and a lot more… The worst problem…which is not a problem but a wound perhaps is a three story mixed in one…1 person knows 2 stories and the other 2 know all the 3 stories… Now why on this planet God is so unfair so let 2 people know 3 stories and the one who should know the 3 stores knows only 2 of them…..1 person is innocent, 1 is sacrificing and the other one too cunning…Whatever!

After like so many problems which are “actual problems”, the real ones and not the ones I make up for myself…. I am seriously tired of sulking, crying, hurting, cutting, attempting suicide etc… No one cares honestly and the biggest truth is that the people or the things you do it for, don’t even give a damn. So why punishing myself…? I never punish myself for others but for my mistakes. I wonder why do I even care for the things that matter the least. Ah maybe that is me… So after my best friends text message and my zillion of genuine problems… I didn’t hurt myself… Yes I cried thrice and had a low day too but when you tell everything to your best friends and you mom, everything feels okay… they support you and show you the right way… They help you get out of such situations which are of course too hard to do but you have to do it, no choice is given…
For the first time in my life I felt that I am a nice person and that I have so many people who love me coz they see the true me, who I am…. I am a nice person and that I have never realized it before. I do understand things and act like a grown up nowadays…. I hide my actual emotions and pretend to be happy…. At least for a while I make people happy, divert myself from the negative things happening in life and think positive. My best friends and my mom are proud of what I have done… I actually turned out to be a true human today who sacrifices and compromises and smiles in pain… I have a few best people in my life and maybe that’s why I am tested again and again. I am proud of myself for what I have done and trust me it feels so much better now, kinda guilt free…And for the first time, I’m so happy for the person I am today. I feel lucky to be born as a human.

I thank the universe creator for everything!

The story behind the the whole thing which made me a good person will be comming soon! ;P

...Save Tigers...

In an effort to save the remaining tigers in India, the Indian conservation group Tiger Trust (TT) has begun to work to help the tigers in India's Kanha and Bandhavgarh tiger reserves.

Currently, India's tiger population is being seriously threatened by poaching and territory loss. Many traditional medicine markets require tigers, and the growing population of people and cattle in India are taking over land that had been formerly occupied by tigers.

Though there were once as many as 150,000 tigers in the world, there are now only about 4,000-5,000. Of the original eight species of tigers, only three are still in existence.

Today, there are about 2,500 of the Indian Royal Bengal tigers left. There are also 1,000 Indo-Chinese tigers, 300 Siberian tigers, 300 Sumatran tigers and 20 South China tigers.

As a result, the Indian tigers seem to be the most likely to survive in the future. However, it will even be difficult for them, and their chance of survival might be quite low.

Every day, one Indian tiger dies. If this rate of death is allowed to continue, all species of tigers throughout the world will be extinct by 2010.

To prevent this scenario, the Save-the-Tiger Campaign and Project Tiger have successfully created tiger reserves and convinced the Indian government to ban tiger hunting. In the longer term, the groups hope to educate the Indian people about the threat of the extinction of the tigers so that they can help to ensure the tiger's survival.

| My Soul Sings |

Back when I was in 7th grade. I still remember I was lying on my couch just feeling low for some reason. I wasn’t into listening to music much. And I felt that American music was dumb. I used to watch a show, POV on channel [V] which was hosted by Kim. I loved that show coz people from all parts of India used to send creative drawings; posters etc…and requested songs. It used to come everyday at 8pm I suppose. So that night I was changing channels and switched to POV. I saw a female running on an empty street, feeling all alone and asking for help from someone who could hold her and make her feel right…she didn’t know who he was but she was with him. That was the 1st song I ever liked and that was the day when I felt so connected to music. I just felt that girl was me for some reason, I don’t know. I just felt she was like me. I just felt so connected. That was Avril Lavigne’s, I am with you… That was the first ever feeling I had for music which made me feel connected and that’s how I started looking for her coz I knew that there was some connection. I knew nothing about her. I looked everywhere on the web and so many other places but I couldn’t find out who she was. All I knew was “I don’t know who you are but I, I’m with you”… Later in 8th grade I figured out it was Avril lavigne when I heard her new song ‘Don’t tell me’, which used to come everyday at exact 1:27pm on Mtv. I wrote her name down and began to check out her songs on web and that was the start of me and music. Today after years, I felt happy. I don’t know why I was happy. I just felt happy. I woke up at 6 and went to take shower. I washed my hair and I was feeling light. It always feels light when u remove thousands clips and extensions. I came out of the shower and stood near my wardrobe thinking of what to wear. I saw a yellow tee...now you must know I hate yellow…but I dragged it out and started to look at it. It was a tee on which all my school friends wrote things about me and drawings as a memory. I know the tee looks way too over loaded with so many words and pictures…but I love it…I never wore it before. I just felt like wearing it. Along with that tee I wore couple of old rings of mine and my old painted converse and my favorite levi’s jeans…I combed my hair which felt so light and all right…I applied some kajal…gulped milk…held a drawing book in my hand and left for college. I heard this song “Always” by Blink 182 in the train and I was behaving like a kid and I just felt so childish. I was singing that song whole day. I just don’t know why. I was singing it in my college canteen…everyone actually thought I was mad…I stood near the canteen mirror and started to make silly faces…it just felt right…I was just smiling and smiling and smiling…I didn’t let any of my friends speak or listen to anyone else…I just kept singing, dancing, jumping, irritating, pushing, pulling them…I just don’t know what made me feel so good. The whole day I irritated my classmates by singing lines that go like : lemme hold you… touch you… feel you… always, kiss you…taste you…all night…always.. The guy friends in my class are used to this weird behavior of mine but today I acted like a drunkard and they actually thought that I had lost myself completely. I doubt if I would have left somebody un-kissed if I would have heard that song for 5 more minutes. Hehehe… Later our jamming was canceled and that made me low. We already don’t have a bassist and our drummer and keyboardist went home. Anyways I kept my cool. I came back to my station and like always I was waiting for my mom to pick me up. She was late. I thought I’d walk. It had been a long time since I walked alone on the streets…So I started to walk without any aim of which way to go… A strange thing happened…I felt like I was in 7th grade again…my head felt light, the sun rays fell on my face…all I could see were my rings and drawing book in my hand…an almost half filled street…I didn’t see anyone I knew…all I could hear was the song which was being played on my phone. I was listening to ‘I’m with you’. In a 3 mins walk I lived that song…every word of it kept ringing in my head and I felt every beat of it matching to my footsteps…My hair falling on my face, blocking the street’s view. I don’t know I just felt I was looking for something and the search isn’t complete yet…For a moment I could hear nothing and see nothing which was moving around me. All I could hear was that song and see was my hair falling on my face. I was living each moment of that song. It was something which…just felt right.
My car's horn broke my thought process and I got in the car thinking, a few seconds and some few words wrapped up in some rhythm can make you feel just perfect no matter where you are. It can purify your soul and you don’t even have to put in any efforts… All it takes to get wrapped into the blanket of music is… some honest words, warm feelings and some tunes…and rest...your soul speaks…

The "V"

Almost twenty years now, I never knew what this huge “V” word is. I thought it was like some festival. I never knew rather I was least interested to know what it was. I never bothered. Like I should have cared what it was the last year but it didn’t feel anything different or special anyway. But hence I am in college it feels like knowing somethings like this one.
This year started with no crushes and no feelings. Honestly I didn’t want to have any crushes or feelings. Past experience was awful. Sometimes honestly I wanted to have feelings but I kept reminding myself that I didn’t want them and that they aren’t made for me. This year people actually thought that I had shook hands with my past and started spreading rumors which never took place and will never take place.


To all of my dear friends,
You should know I never swallow what I spit. I consider my self-respect first and I apply my brains than my heart. From the time I was born till the time now I have never got back to the things that I have left. It’s like ‘once gone’ implies ‘gone forever’, being it friends, relatives etc... So don’t think craps, assume craps, make craps, and circulate craps.
Thank you.

Now, college is a place where the least you can learn is the course subject and maximum you can learn is the love subjects. Since a drastic change has got into me. I have started looking around in college. I have started to take a glance around which I didn’t use to before. I sit at a staircase every morning recess, near artificial grass and look around. I find so many couples, nowadays free shows too. It’s so easy to make out who is behind whom, who loves whom, who all are going on, who hates who and who is like me. Well only my best friend in my college is like me in the entire college, at least in this matter for sure.
The Love story in my college goes like…
Some fell in love ragging kartay kartay
Some fell in love exam main copy kartay kartay
Some fell in love beauty dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love rose queen dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love make ups dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love answers detay detay (receptionist)
Some fell in love padhatay padhatay
Some fell in love last bench pe baithtay baithtay
Some fell in love kt lagaty lagatay
Some fell in love message kartay kartay
Some fell in love books uthatay uthatay
Some fell in love canteen main food share kartay kartay
Some fell in love phone call kartay kartay
Some fell in love gate pe khday hotay hotay
Some fell in love dance kartay kartay
Some fell in love games kheltay kheltay
Some fell in love staircase pe baithtay beithay
Some fell in love music bajaty bajatay
Some fell in love sports dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love clothes ke size dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love shape compare kartay kartay
Some fell in love bike aur scooty pe college atay atay
Some fell in love workshop main metal file kartay kartay
And so on…
Now what should I say. There is no reason you can’t fall in love at college. Even if you don’t have good people around you or even if you don’t want to fall in love… you will fall in love.

C = Contest = College = Canteen = Couples = Craps

Nowadays relationships are like contests. Everyone wants to win the trophy of being popular. Like Popular? WTF. But yes it’s true. Some love stories are too silly. I just smile and laugh at them. Some are serious. Some are the ones which get recycled. Some are the ones with no combination at all. Some are the true ones. Most of them are show offs. Some are all about beauty. Some are about sex and drugs. Some are made of each other. Some are never to last forever. Some are funny. Some are like “what?”. Some are like whatever and so many other types. You won’t believe how much crap I missed in the first semester. There are absolutely too many things to laugh at. I missed how dumb people can be and how lucky one can be.

Anyways. So this year is pretty good for the people around me and I am trying to make things pretty good with me too. Many rather most of my friends have got a valentine this season. It’s so nice to see them happy and away from the fear of upcoming results. Most of my friends have valentines who are their boyfriends/girlfriends. But what about the rest of my friends who don’t? They aren’t happy. Everyone wishes to have a valentine every season. But only a handful of them get the opportunity to have them. So I guess it’s not fair.

I, being an awesome person ( ;p ), am playing CUPID! Like I don’t have any other work in life, so out of boredom I am making everyone happy. So I predicted many couples and at least for a day they can be their valentines. Like valentines is not about sharing a relationship. It’s about sharing honesty, love, friendship and care. So why can’t someone be a person who is honest, friendly, loving and caring for a day. So I displayed my list of all the people who are my friends, paired them up for at least one day so that have a happy valentine this season. I hope everyone is asking the other person out and making their day special along with others. It feels so good when you make someone happy; at least it does to me. I want the whole world to be happy and loving to maintain peace and brotherhood.

You know what? I love you all. And I know you all love me too coz I am so awesome. Thank you! Thank you! So make me happy by staying happy and making others happy too.


A very warm huggiiee to everyone this valentines.
Happy Valentines to everyone in Advance!
*batting eyelashes*

BOREDOM

BASIC INFORMATION

Name: Pallavi
Birthday: April 26, 1990
Shoe Size: 6
Hair Colour: Jet Black
Eye Colour: Jet Black
Relationship Status: Single
Zodiac: Taurus
College: PIITE
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FAVOURITES

Colour: Navy Blue
Male Celebrity: Taylor Lautner i guess
Female Celebrity: Megan fox i guess
Shoes: CONVERSE(chuck taylor)
Book: anything by Chetan Bhagat
Sport: skateboarding, soccer, badminton and all kid-ult games
TV Show: HIMYM
Drink: Shakes!
Food: Pizza!
Gum: Orbit
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NAME SOMETHING THAT STARTS WITH

A: Avril Lavigne
B: Balloons
C: cartoon
D: Drama
E: Everton
F: Fall to pieces
G: Give me
H: Halo
I: Introduction
J: Joy
K: King
L: Leave
M: Me
N: Nevermind
O: Oouchie / oops!
P: Pallavi
Q: Quilt
R: Rascal
S: She
T: Trust
U: Underpants..what am i thinking???
V: Vocalist
W: Whatever
X: xerox
Y: Youtube
Z: Zoo

^these were the instant answers!
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FIRST PERSON YOU THINK OF

Food: Prateek
Fashionista: Neelakshi
Locker: Neethu
Tall: Nikhil
Short: Mohit
Fat: Loy
Gorgeous: Snigdha
Best Friend: both the k's
Silly: Me
Retarded: Mukesh
Blonde: Arayan
Fun: kshiraja
Cute: Richa
Hot: Shambhavi
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LOVE

Have a Crush: Yes... Changes everyday
Do they like you back: I dont know
Or are you in a Relationship Now: Nope
If Someone Likes You: ?
Prefer Tall or Short: Tall
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5..

5 FAVOURITE CELEBRITIES
1. Johnny Depp
2. Megan Fox
3. Avril Lavigne
4. scarlett johansson
5. Jim carrey

5 REASONS TO LIKE SOMEONE
1. Creative
2. Must wear a converse ;P
3. Head on straight
4. Caring
5. Fun

5 THINGS YOU FIND IN YOUR ROOM
1. Avril Lavigne poster
2. Candy (lots and hidden)
3. 2 Guitars
4. Diary (Hidden)
5. Laptop

5 THINGS YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT
1. Cell phone
2. Internet
3. Guitar
4. Converse
5. My blanket and socks

5 BEST SONGS
1. Fall to pieces-Avril Lavigne
2. With me-Sum 41
3. Going Under-Evanescence
4. Diary of Jane- Breaking Benjamin
5. BYe Bye Beautiful-NightWish
(^ currently)

5 BEST ARTISTS/BANDS
1. Avril Lavigne
2. Evanescence
3. Blink 182
4. Sum 41
5. Breaking Benjamin
(^currently)

5 BEST BRANDS/STORES
1. Aeropostale...my fav!
2. Levis
3. Lee Cooper
4. Chuck Taylor
5. Abbey Dawn
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QUESTIONS

1. Have an obsession? Avril Lavigne... ;)
2. Where do you plan to go this summer? I have my birthday coming up this summer..not planed anything yet.
3. What Month is it? Feb
4. Anything big coming up? Fucking Results
5. Why are you doing this? I needed to kill time
6. Like your parents? LOVE them!I guess!:)
7. Do you sleep with a teddy bear? I guess 12 of them and i make all of them sleep under my blanket....hehehehe! I know they wont get cold but still...
8. Do you eat when your nervous? YES!
9. Own a dress? Lots
10. Are you a fast typer? Yes... otherwise I wouldnt waste my time on this crap...i type crap BTW
11. Do you wanna have kids? When I am in my late TWENTIES, I would START considering adopting...else i would have kids, i guess if i find someone!
12. Who do you usually have Christmas dinner with? Myself Alone!
13. Who do you celebrate New Years with? Different EVERY year!
14. Where do you live? At my house
15. Have you made a cootie catcher in your younger years? I STILL make those when I am bored... lol
16. Plans this weekend? My friends have some Valentinez Day shopping...i guess i will tag along!
17. To your left is: a wall
18. To your right is: CPU
19. In your pocket is: Empty
20. Nervous about anything? Upcoming results
21. Scared of the Dark? Nope
22. Have any phobias? Nope..i guess!

|College|Girlfriends & Boyfriends|Friends|

I want to climb the Everest but I don’t have a sweater…
^ implies to me…sometimes…ehehe…
Nowadays I want to do so many things but I don’t do. Nowadays maximum things in life come to ones knowledge via internet. I still wonder how I used to enjoy life without internet. I meet my friends almost everyday via social websites, talk to most of them via messengers, listen to various kind of music, learn new songs, read blogs, know about new gadgets and almost everything to know comes from internet.
I used to play, hang around, party and do so many things when there was no internet. But now I am just a lazy ass who does nothing except using phones and internet, putting weight and getting bored…


Anyways, there is nothing in college to do. The time table just sucks. I hate college. We have so much time to waste, I get bored. There is no one to look around, no one to play and so many other things. I hate this. I get bored. I keep on sulking too. Results are going to come soon. I don’t want to see them. Good news is that we get placed if we clear all kt’s before 3rd semester. So I hope I don’t get any kt in any semester so that I can sit for a job placement. I don’t know but I want a job after 3 more years. I want to do MBA from my money. I know I won’t save any still. I want to go abroad and do MBA. So I kind of want to do it from my money. I am so sick of my dad paying for everything. In abroad students earn and pay their fees by their earnings being totally independent without parents. I mean come on, I want be independent and hell yeah I’m big now and I want to earn and spend money on me.
Anyways, no results in my blog anymore. Scary!
So life at my end hasn’t been good lately. Something’s are just left messed up. Its not like I don’t wanna clear things out but some people don’t want to. I am bored all the time. I hate college. I just like squash, the drink. I have no assignments to write. This semester I have 3 jobs in workshop. You must know this: I SO hate workshops. Every Monday morning is workshop. I hate you.
Latest topic in college is “BOYFRIENDS”. I wonder what a boyfriend is.
According to my experience if a girl is beautiful or wears hot clothes and a guy is into music, sports or bike racings, implies a couple/relationship. Take a look around in your college and open your eyes, its reality. If you are a girl who is not beautiful and if you don’t wear hot clothes, you are single. If you are not into punk, metal, biking/car racing, sports, dude you don’t stand a chance. Nobody actually cares who you are and what you feel. All people care about is how you look and how much you can publicize. Relationships nowadays are just Public Display Affection to raise their TRP’s. Feeling, understandings, care, honesty holds no place. Rather these are replaced by beauty, drinks, sex, spending whole time out and other dirty acts. So if you are trying hard to get a girlfriend/boyfriend, I am sure you are a fool if you haven’t got one yet coz you are looking for care, understandings and commitments.
Being a girl I have realized and experienced something which is hard for a girl to admit but is true. Ahahh! Ahhehm! Girls when get boyfriends tend to change themselves. They start wearing pretty dresses, skirts, waxing becomes an every two week work, stop playing sports, stop talking to other friends, stop hanging around and kind of cut off from all their friends, combing hair thrice a day, wearing awesome make ups, behaving way too nice and polite, good words in conversation, more romantic songs and movies, a lot of smiles when a text message is received, eating less and watching weight, voice becomes sweet and no screaming, small smiles, my god! Long long eyelashes batting again and again and what not. Trust me it is true. But my question is why? Why do girls change so much? Why sports, music, fun, entertainment, scream, laughter, jeans, converse, guitar, bboying, dance, honest conversation, tanks etc go away? I guess the guy picked you for what you looked and has changed you to what he wanted.
Now the guys are real clever. They look for only 3 things: beautiful/hot, must be into drinking/smoking/doping, sex. If a girl has these qualities, its like “HIT ME!”. Boys, don’t worry 95% girls are like what you want plus minus looks. So what guys want is not a girl who has made herself creative, knowledgeable, honest, understanding, different, true and who cares about them as well as the people around them. All they want is the one who is for me and me and me for pda’s and enjoyment. Wow! Im amazed!

Anyways in my college my friend and other friends are in love and want a commitment but cant say. I don’t understand why beautiful girls have a problem in admitting that they love someone. The one who aren’t beautiful need to think, right? So I don’t know why my beautiful friend doesn’t go and admit the fact. We talk about that guy everyday and my sweet-silly-innocent-beautiful friend’s tragedy too. God why is admitting a fact so difficult for people. If someone comes and asks me or even doesn’t ask me, I would go and say that I love them, miss them, and are special etc honestly. I don’t find it weird. Like if I like someone who is out of my reach, I can’t help it. I like him that’s it. All I do is that I don’t expect anything from him. Just see him happy and stay happy too. Why on this earth whom you like has to be yours. I guess one should care and love that person who cares and loves you than that person whom you care and love but he doesn’t care or love you. One can’t always get what he/she wants. Only real lucky people get what they want. I have accepted the fact and so should others too.
Gosh! Why people are so lame and dumb?
If you like someone go say it, you don’t like keep shut.
Just be happy in your skin and your % of luck. I am trying and I want others to think about it too.
There are a lot of guys and girls who think they are hot and beautiful and that they think the whole world is behind them. But the truth falls later when they need wood to light the stove in their house and the utensils which don’t make noises and stay calm. The smart ones will understand what this means and the rest ones, keep going on! That’s so made for you.



By the way my friend just got that guy she was crazy about as her boyfriend yesterday and I am so happy for her…she finally found someone she loved for a year, this valentine.
And for me, things have changed so much in the past one year!

I wish!

On and Off and On!

Hola!
College started yesterday…well not officially but kinda yes! It has started…
Well the shocking news of this semester was that our principal got changed…its our physics professor who is going to serve as our principal now onwards…
Sports are like, in, this season…I guess…so my college has sports day going on…
I like to play sports but I amnt a good player…See if u have read my previous blogs you might have known by now that I love to do a lot of things but I am good at nothing….

Yesterday at college I went to sign on my attendance sheet…that’s it…all lectures were canceled due to sports day….
I always thought that my class in college sucks…it does but for a change I kinda enjoyed yesterday….we, I mean most of my classmates, both girls and boys….we played PIIT musical something….okay so…everyone got a chance to sing songs and it was fun…we were singing the cheapest songs on this planet….its fun, sometimes, seriously….
So we were kicked out by some BMS professor and hence forth…no singing….
We went to play hide and seek…damn fun….i was becoming the person who finds everyone who hides, all the time…like in a row 5 times…everyone on the architecture wing in the old canteen were laughing at me…but as if I care….hehehe…im so good at being awful at everything…
We played for long…again got kicked by some other professor…trust me it was a scene…everyone’s ID card was in danger…we ran outta the college and dashed ourselves into a car and my friend drove all the girls to the nearest park..guys were on foot….it was awesome…we played chain-chain…and I don’t suck at it trust me....ehehhahaha…then after halftime we played kho-kho…Oh! Man I was loving every moment playing at the park….then we had a discussion about our band….i don’t think its ever going to exist but yea everyone does…anyways…Later on we all went to watch my friends play cricket…you know what, I love to go and cheer my friends in whatever they do…be it in sports, debate, writings, gig, paintings or whatever…I always go to cheer them…I love my friends and I feel good to have such friends who participate in so many things….it was fun to watch everyone play…..i know girls are not much into sports but the ones who try are the real heroines and I love them for that…
So anyway…I found something bad rather not good enough about the popular students in my college and it wasn’t good enough to know that some of them were my friends…See, when someone says something about some of your friends, you either go against them or listen from on ear and throw it from the other….But its kinda hard to ignore when they prove you by pointing fingers and showing things live…..anyways!
Things yesterday with my best friend was bad for me…she asked me to do something which I always try to do but fail in doing….she counted on my myself respect…so I had to have my self-respect and do what she said…coz she wasn’t wrong.
That was so yesterday…and here the song continues….
Your So yesterday…so yesterday…im just a bird that’s already flown away…laugh it off…let it go away…come tomorrow…it will seem so yesterday so yesterday…haven’t you heard that im gonna be okay…O-K-A-Y!

So today….
I got up at 6 as usual…I woke up and figured out a disaster about myself….i thought I couldn’t play but I am just weird or something…I went to play…I went to play soccer for a team…A team I don’t know and never met…there was this guy whom ive never seen called me up and asked me to wear a red tee and play for his team…you know I don’t like embarrassing myself….but hell yea! I always go to embarrass myself….so here I wore a red tee and looked at the watch and said… “its tomorrow”….. my lazy ass was working real slow this morning…. And I was in a pathetic state of break down….
Anyways I just ran a bath and tied up my hair and whatever and got ready….
During my first semester I used to catch 6:46am local but the times have changed….i now catch a 7:9am local which comes at 7:6am….So tried hard to catch that local and as soon as I reached….i saw it passing by me…what the hell??? I waited for the next local and it was late and I left at 7:25am from my station.
I was alone in the train..i don’t usually stand next to the door especially in the mornings….its cold out here…but I don’t know…I just felt something was wrong with me…like something was missing…I passed kharghar station and some old memories came into mind…I saw that house and I tried not to look at it…I just don’t know…it felt like last February, when we all were preparing for our boards and everything before and after just flashed back to back during the whole journey…I felt alone for a while…like something could have held me back….It was cold…the air around me was chilling cold…I almost felt numb…I should have gone inside but I wanted to become numb and the pain…standing at the door I just wished that the pain I was facing could go away on its own or by something or someone…I felt empty, rather hollow and I could see everything passing through me…like the fresh and cold air…this feeling just doesn’t go away…it come again and again and haunts me, I don’t know why…I wish this feeling could just go away…but I guess nothings magical…so anyway…I watched people jogging, people taking their dogs for long walk, mother holding hands of her cute little daughter to leave her to school, old people playing with a tennis ball, tall grass, a small river and lots of under construction buildings…I don’t know I just felt like one of those under constructed buildings and in no time I read PANVEL in bold …I reached by 7:40am and saw my friends waiting for me…no one rushed to the college…no one wants to go anyway…I sat for chemistry lecture….BTW..a good news…my class has shifted from 3rd floor to 2nd floor…I am SO loving it! Yea yea!
So anyway…later on I went to the field and a guy called me…then he made me meet my team mates….they were all F.E students but I haven’t seen any of them before for sure….So our match was the first one…
In my college there is a rule that a girl should play for 2 mins in both the halves of the match and I went to play for 2 mins….my team mates were really nice…I liked them…my teams name was DAVID something…everyone says that this named guy was the biggest chain smoker in the world….anyways…as if I know…I played for the first half and second half….my team lost….but still I loved my team…I was asked by 3 more teams to play for them…for 2 mins….i don’t know what I was thinking…I just went…A big embarrassing day it was for me….but I don’t know….i still don’t feel embarrassed…like…I should…but I don’t…I wanted to play…I played…I don’t care even if I suck at it…I just wanted play…coz I just felt like….i enjoyed I donoo what…but I just did…I wish there were no spectators…
I guess I have got AIDS…I know sounds like what???....its like people from my college were plucking/getting/todofying coconuts from the trees of our college…I love to talk to anyone….i just need someone to talk to…I asked him if he could share coconuts with me…he got a piece of the inner creamy layer of the coconut for me and i had it…Later my friend made me see his hand and it was bleeding…like a small cut was there…now if he has AIDS then I have it too… 
Later on I saw couple of matches and it was fun….i saw tug of war between the college staff….it was hilarious….just made my day….
Treat in the canteen from cutest looking girl today coz she got like…almost got her license…Again I went to see matches…I met my school friend…we were in the same class in 10th and later in 11th and 12th he took commerce but still the same school bus made us stay in touch….So I watched an amazing game called actual match with the best team of Mumbai and it was fun..i even found him some girls he would like to date and guess what….he liked one and the story continues…I SO love finding guys, girlfriends…it was fun with him…it was like back during the school days…the same fun…hes still the same…just too cool…we had lodsa fun….

Later I caught 1 something local and I so loved today…. Like today in the college…
Later I went into a local and saw a female…she was very old….like running in her 80’s I guess…her hands were rigid and of weird shape…she was all dirty…torn clothes and tangled hair…she needed help and she was begging…she just had this weird eyes which wanted to say so many things…ive never noticed so much about someone but she surely was a different one…she looked as if she had not had food since long…she didn’t even have enough clothes to cover her breast and I felt really bad for…I don’t like people suffering…I just got up and got down from the train…I don’t know what went wrong…but something surely did…

I don’t know whats wrong with me…nowadays I just go on and off like a switch…I go real high and then real low…I don’t know…im just so not consistent…there are a million reasons behind this mood change of mine…I just don’t wanna sit and sort things out…I guess I am trying to run away from them…I always try to take harsh and hard steps but the situation puts me into such conditions that I fail to imply them…I just hope everything goes okay with me…

Just wanna say…
Okay!

Do you know why I blog so much?

The reason is that I like to talk about stuffs around me…I just cant stay quite and bored…my mom is tired of listening to me from past 19 years…I have so much to talk about…but everyone on this planet is so busy in their own life doing their own things…I don’t have a boyfriend and my best friends stay in other cities…So on phone I cant tell them what all is going on completely…and at college you know there is nothing happening…rather no one I like to talk to…So to achieve satisfaction I blog…I know nobody reads much of them except a few friends of mine who have nothing to do, so to kill their time they read my blogs…I just feel good re-calling the stuffs in my life…I feel so happy, light and positive…what a change this year has brought to me…I am just happy! I feel good and I love myself so much.

Love
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The Cashew Finger made my vacation! :p

So here ends my Winter-exam-break.
By now, after reading my other blogs you might have known that I don’t have many...rather any one to hang out much…so what I do is stay at home, facebook, sleep, watch “How I met your mother”, Movies, play guitar, spend hours on phone with my best friends and old friends, writing these crappy blogs, playing guitar….Before this vacation I had wasted all my other vacations doing nothing except sulking so I didn’t want this to be a waste like before and I wanted it to be constructive…so I listed a few things I had to do and im glad since the vacations have come to and end, I see I have done most of the things that I had listed…
I always am honest to myself and to everyone around…so I wanted to see how honest I could be to myself and realize the life I have got is filled with what…I wrapped myself and collected all the memories and everything of my life and wrote a blog “That green red frock”…That was something I wanted to write and i thank everyone for everything and myself to realize who I am and what I have…the next thing on my list was to get an electric guitar and I got one…hahaha…anyways…then I planned to watch the large number of movies I had and I just saw I guess 1/4th of the large collection but I saw all the 3 seasons of ‘How I met your mother’ and I am looking forward to the 4th season…I learnt a lot of stuffs in music…I read my writer friend’s blogs…I learnt how to cook some awesome new dishes…I was waiting for this one…I had this plan to go out with my friends to Bandra…I went…and guess what I didn’t cut myself even once this year…like by now I would have made at least 3 cuts in a month but hey im doing good I guess…I got extensions…I wanted them so badly…I filled up the second semester form…I went to meet orphanage kids…
Now the things I didn’t complete…I was looking forward to write a song with my friend….but I guess I don’t know much about music so I have to learn that first and then look forward for that to happen…I didn’t read the books which I wanted to…”the white tiger” and…”two cities” and some more….i didn’t get a hair cut…I wanted to…but I don’t know what I should do with my boring hair…I didnt paint my tee…I guess I will do that by today if I remember..ehehehhe!

So vacation…
Started by watching movies…facebook….and himym….
Had a nice day talking to my best friends and we laughed like hell that day…
Went with my friends to Bandra and enjoyed there too…I got my extensions and I love them…muaaahz…
I went with my best friend to a tech-fest at IIT Bombay and it was amazing…
I went to my college fest…it was okay….now I know what a fest is….
I went to this other college’s fest which had battle of bands and It was amazing…it simply was exquisite….
I went to visit this friend of mine and watched couple of movies at his place…
I went to my cuty doctor and I so love him….well I fell sick in the middle too…
^ Those were some things I had listed and I did them…

The best one’s that made my vacation memorable were…
My friend, the only girl I like from my class…college and all that…I went to college to fill forms with her…it was fun that day…way too mucha fun…we waited for like an hour cursing the staff members of our college to open the counter to fill forms…and just 4 steps…mark my words…”4 steps” ahead people were actually filling forms and we like dumb people went for rounds all over the college…I don’t know it was just feeling so stupid of us to know that we were so dumb…it was just common sense, when u see people just 4 feet away from you holding the same form …we couldn’t guess that they might have made a new office next to the old one…it was funny…I don’t know why..that moment was just funny….maybe because we didn’t know how to write our names in marathi language in the form and we wrote it in hindi…I hope we didn’t do spelling mistakes…the last time I wrote in hindi was I guess 3 years back…it was a tiring day. we went to 4th floor and came down like 4 times just because of our stupidity or lack of common sense… :p

Later that day I went out with this friend of mine… It was just a sudden plan and I had no clue what to say or do with him…we decided to play stuffs since I had got my new electric guitar…we went to his place…man! he drives like crazy and for a moment I thought that it was my last ride ever…like he drives good but he scares me way too much…so we went to his place to play guitar…btw he plays bass…he is sure a busy man…so many calls he gets…so many commitments he has…I was wondering how he got free that he actually could find time to play nonsense with me…anyways..moving forward…I never like going to guys room…coz its all a big mess….and his room was less messy than I thought…anyways…the time I entered I got “JEALOUS”…he had this awesome Avril Lavigne poster and I for once wanted to kill him then and there…anyways…we played songs by Avril…I know what an insult it is to a metal head guy like him…anyways…ive never played with other instruments before except drums…This reminds me of Mohit, he played drums for us in 11th grade and trust me the song-“take me away” by avril sounded like a disaster…Me,my friend and my best friend played the guitar almost perfectly…but the vocals of the other girls made the song pathetic…it was like some people chanting morning prayers..”humko maan ki shakti dena”….and all that….Mohit, Rascala played the drums so loud that our guitars were barely heard….i so hated my first performance…. …Anyways so ya I was at that guy’s house…so we played stuffs and honestly it was so much fun for me…coz I played what I loved playing…Bad day for him…then I came back home….then I never thought we would go skate boarding…we both had completely forgotten it but it was fun watching him doing unsuccessful attempts over it… :p we then played soccer…I suck at it but I love it…we rode baby bicycle...it was so much fun…then we went to have ice cream…on the way we played stone football…it was fun….and then a disaster happened at the ice-cream parlor…I would so not like to disclose it….a disaster is a disaster….moving on…I thought he was a firangi and that he would not be liking pani puri..when he asked me if we could have pani puri…I was simply SHOCKED! Yes I was…like…omg… Later we had pani puri…it sucked…I love the pani part the most in the pani puri…and I always ask for more pani in the end coz I love to drink it…but I got embarrassed…not exactly embarrassed but kinda shy and I broke my tradition of having pani in the end and so we walked outta that place…we went for a short-long walk…it was nice and I apologized him from the bottom of my heart for the worst idea I gave to him about something…I am still ashamed of myself for saying that…I just hate myself for saying that…being a girl I shouldn’t have said that and I did…I don’t know what I was thinking when I said that…but honestly I don’t mean to hurt anyone I know and especially the ones I don’t know…after the walk we played badminton…the best part hanging around with him is…you can play or do so many variety of things and enjoy it too…it was just fun…we talked for a while and left for home…I enjoy spending time with people when it is so unplanned and it turns out to be good…Thanks a lot for everything boy.

The next day I went to Bandra with my friends and my best friend…we went via bus and we had no plans to shop or anything…we reached the place and got down from the bus..took an auto….now people you need to know this when you are hanging around with the girls and you see stuffs they go crazy to shop them…so they all went crazy….they started to look for bags, shoes, tee’s and accessories….they pick on things and I love to bargain…if you go to Bandra you can actually buy a stuff which according to the shopkeeper costs 300 at just 50 bucks….i am an expert in bargaining! So we went for a round of all the shops in half an hour and that was it…we all were hungry…the best part of going out is you gotta eat outside….and when KFC is near…there’s nothing to stop you from grabbing it except your pocket.hehe..but I had turned into a vegetarian and I went to McDonalds and had a veg burger…I don’t believe myself…I know…but I did…So the most exciting and the best part of the trip…I saw this girl…she was hot…Man hot! Let me tell you…I am a girl and I am not a lesbian…I am straight and that I don’t fall for girls or do any such act…But I just like to check girl’s out…There she was, white in colour, tall and slim built…she was in a brown skirt…really small and a dark brown tank…she was beautiful and delicate as she looked…she had this perfect hair and amazing eye makeup…she wore ballerinas and looked simply beautiful…she had a pink cell phone and had a very girly brown leather bag…she was sitting on the table in front of me and trust me I couldn’t stop starring at her...She was beautiful…Yup she was! I was forced by my friends to get out of that place coz I was starring at her constantly…so we later on went to check out shoes…I am a shoe person…I am all about Converse…I love wearing them….i buy them from malls or the outlets but never from Bandra street coz I just find it so not original…I don’t know why…my other friend bought a Converse from there…we then went ahead…I got myself extensions…I always wanted them…There is this girl in my college who does bboying she got them and I wanted them so badly from 12th grade itself…so anyway…I finally got them…I love braiding them and hanging around…so there I got a flip-flop for myself…my best friend got a cap and a bag and rest of the people…I don’t remember…we headed back to the bus…on the way back I sat next to the window seat…the bus had long wide glass and I was listening to music in peace, looking outside…it just felt like the best ending to the trip…it just did…my best friend made it beautiful coz we enjoy so much together even when we stay alone walking together…she is like me and she likes things the way I do…she just makes everything so easy and fun that I just love her so much…I love you baby so much…

The next day I again went to hang around with the same friend as I mentioned playing guitar with above…so we went to read c++…its kinda hard to concentrate when he just keeps yawning…I cant make out if he likes to read what I ask him to or if he is sleepy…he says when he concentrates too much, he yawns…but I guess he never yawns with his girlfriend….he just yawns with me…you can make out by now that I kinda bore him…I wonder sometimes, I have so many things to say to people that this entire life of mine would not be enough to just talk about…and not only me talking…I like listening to people too…I like to listen to the stuffs going on in their lives and I try to help them if they need help…you can see I am a true sweetheart and that I am the most awesome-est friend you can ever have… :p “I am so awesome”…I have learnt this from a T.V show, “how I met your mother”...this character of barney is amazing and yes he is so awesome. Coming back…So that day was sunny and that we talked a lot…I love talking to someone who pays attention to what I say…I don’t know if he really does but I guess when he is with me…he does and else he doesn’t. That was another day we had fun talking…I guess he did too…I really don’t know if he did….

The next day I went for to my college to see the fest…and It was boring…my and my friends we were sitting on the stair and my dream of playing “have you met Ted” came true….i just loved playing it with my friend…its so cool…but the girls in my college are such dodo’s what to say…not that much fun but yeah fun!
Later the next day I went for a fest in another college and trust me the battle of the bands was amazing…I heard people playing different genre of music and my music teacher was the judge…it was cool…I don’t like metal much maybe coz of the vocals but yea punk rock is my cup of tea…I came to know how people in a band co-ordinate and stuffs…its cool…it was amazing…I guess I enjoyed the most…it was fun…

Moving on to the next trip…it was IIT-TechFest…my dad drove me and my best friend to that college…it was fun…we saw lots of animals and heard about them way too much…There was this big Alligator which was caught there some time back and snakes are everywhere…But it is one of the most reputed colleges in India and that only scholars get into such institutions…So anyway…I always liked going to science fairs and all … so I liked this one too…I saw many missiles…I saw an instrument which detects bombs, mines and other things…I learnt how disaster management plays a vital role and how the gadgets are used when they lie next to you while you are suffering…we waited for 3 hours in hot sun in a queue to get inside this science fair…man it was killing me…but when you plug into music everything hurting you feels alright…so 3 hours standing in the line passed away…A little secret was that we all drunk cloud 9…the energy drink..hahaha…so anyway…as you know.Inside I saw artificial hands and legs..how people who don’t have hands and legs use them…I saw the generation of solar cells...they taught us how to study human body glucose with the small flies that sit on the sweet banana’s if we leave them uncovered…they talked about the nano particles and elements made from them…how if you apply a stuff made by nano particle’s on a balloon can save it from bursting when sharp pins are poked into it….i saw the 3D version of earthquake…The best thing I liked was the gadget which is used for paralyzed people who cant move but can communicate and draw figures and art works via the movement of eyeballs…I love the person who made this…I respect him the most…then I saw a solar vehicle…its made up of mirrors etc…we saw many cool stuffs and I think it was fun with my friend…I like to know things…I know the best thing I like to know is about space but hey, I like to know other things too…I love to get knowledge about various things…I just love to know things…but I hate to know things that are used to puke in the examination hall :p …so anyway…the trip was good and I loved it…Later on we went to and exhibition of art work and it just made my day…I wish I would have tagged my other best friend along…It was just too beautiful…I liked the hard work that people had put into…I respect them…I came home with my best friend and we played guitar for quite sometime….we had food and I went to sleep…

Today, I went out with my best friend…it was just a short notice and we just wanted to check out the music store in Sea Woods…I bought a capo…she got string…We walked to meet our music teacher whom I respect the most…he’s just exquisite…an amazing guy…he wasn’t there…so we went to meet our school friend and we gave her a surprise…she was shocked to see us…I know…we stayed at her house and talked about the changes in everyone’s life after school…we went down to have pani puri…I love pani puri, bhel, chaat, sev puri, dahi wada, dahi puri and mmmmmmm…my mouth is already watering…..its better I stop listing them….It was an amazing pani puri wala stall…it was one of the spiciest pani puri I ever had…yum yum yuuuum! Okay then we went to have ice cream…I don’t like eating again and again and again…so I didn’t have ice cream…so then we went to look for another ice cream parlor…it was far…the fun part beings….it was damn fun…I have never been good at riding…I didn’t tell this to my friends and being the thinnest one amongst them I got the chance to drive…I guess we were weighing 180 kg and I drove the scooty…it was fun…3 people, I have never tried riding with 3 people…it was just amazing…I had so mucha fun riding…I cant explain…then we went to meet our music teacher again…it was the third time…we actually found him…we talked a lot about music…he told me what a band needs to do and what is good on stage…what is a money minded band and what is a show off band and all that…every time I talk to him…its amazing…he inspires and tells me how about to go in music…he told me what my band is suppose to be and all that…it was amazing….again i like people educating me…so he did educate me…every time I meet him I enjoy the time I share knowing music from him…its amazing…my friend and I left for home…but as if!…We were very hungry…actually I had nothing since morning and so I was starving…without my pills I went to the shop and we have corneza and something else…which I forgot…it had delicious Manchurian balls stuffed in it… then we headed back towards the station…you don’t know but after the half way…we still were hungry and we went back and had the cashew finger…dude this desert made my vacation…I loved it so much…the whipped cream stuffed between the cameral and cashew bread….mmmmuuuuuaaaahz!!!!!i loved it…I went gaga over it…I guess this was the best part of my vacation…I loved it…my mouth is watering like a waterfall…omg…I loved it…I loved it…I just loved it,….it was a yummy day and I came back home…guess what an hour later I got a phone call from my friends brother..he was worried coz she wasn’t home…omg I got scared and I started to call her up and I was all so scared…I don’t know why but yes I was….i love her so much…im glad she didn’t get lost…ahahhahaha!

So I guess I did pretty many things in these two weeks….i was bored in the middle but not all that bored…things just kept me going on and on and I enjoyed it and I guess I dint let this vacation of mine go waste….
Im glad it was constructive and I guess I am happy…
Well my vacation ended yesterday
But hell yeah !i didn’t go to college today coz dude again tomorrow is a holiday…
So everyone and everything on this planet which made my vacation pretty constructive…thanks yew so much…I love yew all…

I feel good!

My Seminary!

I had three exams this year…and I studied as usual the way I do…you need to know that college life is a different life…completely different life…like in schools we all go everyday and never bunk…we are all disciplined and we study in each lecture…the duration of each lecture is smaller than the college lectures…we have a group of friends say 150 in the entire standard and we all see each other’s face almost daily for years…you may know some juniors and some seniors, if you use the bus facility or if your neighbor’s kids study in the same school….
Everyone says college life is different…sure it is….like….i have never lived this kind of life before…After coming to college I have started to play my guitar more than I ever used to…I have started to watch movies both in theaters as well as on my laptop… I have started listening to rusty music…like when you are at school you mostly listen to Hilary Duff, Dido, Avril Lavigne, Kelly Clarkson, Backstreet boys, Westlife, Blue, Linking Park and stuffs like that…but when you enter college the whole genre as well has as artists selection changes…you come to know what is exactly going in this world…you get real knowledge about how people are and what are the worst things in this world…you get to know a lot of dirty stuffs and get to meet new faces everyday…
My college is dumped with like a zillion of courses…I don’t know exactly but besides Engineering, we have BMS, BCA, BSc, Architecture, MBA and god knows how many more courses…we have like so many students and everyday you see a new face…One can get use to looking at new faces every year since new batch joins and the old batch leaves but NO! in my college we have so many students that you cant make out who is from which department and who is from which year…The funniest part is that you cant distinguish between the teachers, professors and students…they all look the same…Anyways so I am in the engineering section…there are like 8 sections for the F.E students and each section has 70 students and more but defiantly not less….i don’t know half of my section people although my first semester is over. How do u expect me to know the other section students? There are so many branches in engineering too… like IT, Computer Science, Automobile, Electronics, Electronics and telecommunication, Mechanical and so many more….besides the engineering students, now you can imagine how the other courses students are filled in my college…so a new face everyday…I have stopped looking at the people around because I know that I don’t have to find anyone from the crowed to be my friend because everyone’s so different(in a bad way)…

So, my college life started last year and I had met a few people in my class…new girls…some seemed to be nice but later on became annoying…in the whole crowd trust me I don’t like anyone…the whole crowd includes every person going inside and coming out of the college…I just like one girl…she’s my only friend at college I guess…rest of the people in my group are cool to hang out with but I guess I am way to choosy on people and the places so I don’t hang out much with them…there is no one good looking in my college…Hell No! wait a minute, there are some hot guys…all straightened hair, unshaved chest, tight figure hugging tee’s, bell bottom pants and floaters or boot kinda shoes…they are so popular that you can look at them and say, “Oh my God! Now I have seen them before. I guess here itself, in college…”. They are such dudes that you cant get your eyes off them, seriously, i’ll tell you the reason why. They are so hot that your eyes burn off and so when ever they come around, you look at them and mutter, “Assholes…they are the ones who took my eyes away. So hot!”
So if I go down to the canteen and look around then I see new faces everywhere and trust me, I get lost every time when I look at someone. I start to wonder where I have landed up..but guess what…while I am wondering staring at that person…that person actually thinks that I have got a crush on him/her…WTF! You don’t know how dumb I feel…I actually let people have time of their day to think that I have a crush on them…at least for once I make them happy and bring a smile on their face. :p
Now I will tell you how many people I know in my college and how they are…

In my college I know 1 girl who was my school mate…she is in BMS…she puts awesome makeup’s and is very nice and sweet….so there I know someone from BMS section…there is another guy who is in the same class with her whom I know was in my school and we watched man utd match together in 11th grade…So I know 2 people from BMS section..
Moving on to B__…I guess this course is there in my college…something with “B”…there are so many courses with “B”z….i get lost…so…I guess this is the course where I have 2 more females, my school mates….i like them just because they play for my college and they are die hard sports fan…they are good with sports…so from this section I know 2 girls…
There is another course BCA…I know 1 girl from this course…Again she was my school mate…she is nice but I feel awful for her since her major accident….i hope you are fine and that you still remember me…I guess we spoke 2 weeks back…I guess she does remember me… :p
Moving on to Bsc….now this is a mystery…there is this group of guys who play in bands…one guy I know personally…we met on orkut and became friends and later on I realized he was from my college itself…hahaha..i know that’s so funny…that guy sits with other guys…I don’t see them everyday but yea we share a glance pretty often…they all think I am crazy coz I compliment them for their music and they pretend as if they don’t know me…once I called one of the guys to call the friend of mine…he said “some mad girl is calling you…” and you wont believe later on when I complimented that guy he asked me from which college I was….now…isn’t that funny….guys think we don’t understand but we do…its funny….but I don’t know, most of the people in my college have so much attitude what to say? So I don’t know if they are my friends…I guess not coz after that incident I am pretty sure they don’t know me….anyways…moving on to another mystery of BSc…I know a girl from that class…whom I know but still i don’t know…my dad says I know her but I just know her sir name and I don’t remember anytime in my childhood I spent a day with her at her house…so I will put her in a ‘no’ list…so from Bsc I guess I know that guy who is fun to talk to but don’t ever hang out with him….he will leave you in the middle of the road where you know nothing and will go home sit and enjoy….i know weird…and when you text him he will be rude too…sometimes when u enjoy with him when he is in his senses and so not angry that time is the best time you can have with him but rest of the time…its shhhhh! Scary! I guess he scares me coz I know him and he hates me..i guess coz whatever I say makes no sense to him and he thinks I just fake things...so I don’t know if he considers me as a friend or not…but I guess I do…so 1 from BSc.
Now engineering section…in my class I know this guy who plays drums, one who plays guitar, one who possesses manager skills, one guy who always does my stencil work and one guy whom all girls like, one guy whom my friend has a crush on and another guy who is an awesome rider…that’s all in the guys I know…in girls I know one who is beautiful, one who is her friend, one who speaks a lot but very sweet, one whom I don’t wanna mention…, one who is my best friend…one who has a piercing wala dp on facebook, one who drives her blue car, one who is a muslim and one who plays keyboards…I guess thats all…
In other sections of engineering I know 5 guys who are my good friends and always there to check if the guys I am talking to are good or bad….they all are from my school…I know 3 girls who r in my group and I love the girl who is into bboying…and other one who is so sweet…I even know one girl who is now my friend but studied with my best friend…I know some other guys and girls who sit in front and behind me in the examination hall….and not to mention some raggers and 3 senior guys and 3 senior girls too…
So in total I know only 50 students from my college outta I guess zillion….and by now you might have figured out whom I like and whom I don’t…I know the don’ts are more than the do’s but its kinda hard to stay with the don’ts because they are just so not my type….okay not my type is still understandable but they are so boring…I cant handle that part…
That’s my college life for now…I am so irritated with it…I just sing “welcome to my life” by simple plan everyday…That’s my escape…
:;(

Reverie

Last night…I had a dream…I never talk about my dreams because I don’t remember them after I wake up…but today, I guess after years…I woke up in a nice mood…I felt light…I felt no Burdon on me….i felt honest with a smile…
The dream was amazing…It was the shortest dream I guess I ever had…I had this dream start, I guess at 7:16am and it ended by 7:25am…Now you might be wondering how I know the exact timings…ah well! Almost the exact time….its my friend who everyday wakes up and text’s me the exact same msg-“Wake up boys…I woke up”. So I checked the time and then, after the dream I woke up again and checked the time….
I guess last night I shampooed my hair and took a warm shower before going to bed…so I was feeling light…maybe that is the reason for my good dream…anyways yea….so the dream….

I am sleeping on my bed…the light under and through my curtain falls into my darkest room…I realize its morning time and I remove my favorite blanket from top of me…I guess it is some special day and date…I don’t know if its my birthday or holiday or whatever…So I wake up and sit on my bed…I am wearing a pink satin dress…it’s a spaghetti with thin stripes…the room is all dark but the sun rays through and under my curtain makes it look just the most beautiful morning…I look at my cell phone and check the time …it was 11:15am…I feel good as I come outta the bed and start to keep my legs on the floor…I see the whole room filled with balloons…like the silk colour balloons… everywhere… 3/4th of the room is filled with the balloons…I start to look around and I could see only blue…pink…white…coloured balloons with long satin ribbons…I hear slow music running in the background…ive never heard that kinda song before…I don’t know it was just different and felt so right….i began to run in circles….i felt the touch of the balloons on all the parts of my body and it just felt so right….i am smiling and playing with those balloons…then I remove the curtain and see the sun rays directly falling on me…and guess what? I liked sun for once over darkness…I turn around and see balloons everywhere in my room…I began to play with them again….after sometime I realized that there was a message on each the balloons…it had compliments and the kinda dialogues I love to say and hear….some read: “we all love you”, “everything to make you feel right”, “happiness implies you”, “we all miss you”, “we love you the way you are”, “special friend” and my favorite one: “Hugs from all across the world from every living creature on this planet…just for you”….i went like…”aaaawwwwww!” it just felt so right…like I was in some lala land and just everything around felt nice…like everything was perfect…I felt light and pleased…I had realized that I had bouncy hair when I started to jump and play with the balloons again…the room had this fresh air all around…the air was like the ones you feel when its rainy day and the first rain bring you the cool wind after hot summer…I felt happy from the bottom of my heart and I just felt me…like…I don’t know…..its just that…..i was like….like on something I would hold on to forever….

“La la lalalalala…la la lalalala..”that’s my sms tone..i know weird na…it’s a song by the offsprings- self-esteem…and then the sms arrived…and Boom I woke up…my room was empty and curtains seemed to pass the same light as in the dream and I checked my cell phone…
Sometimes something’s which are so small and so little seem to be giving the biggest happiness…doesn’t it?…I don’t know why I always find happiness in small things…it just feels right and it seems to be completing my big frame of happiness by all those small ones…I don’t know like…I say I want a guitar…I want this dress and all like expensive stuffs but they don’t provide me with all the happiness…
For instance…I always wanted an electric guitar and this year I finally got one…I went to the store with a straight face and got the guitar with that same face…and on the other hand when I told my best friend I had got an electric guitar, she was jumping and screaming and I guess she was more happy than me…yes! Kshiraja…you sounded and felt happier than me…for once I thought that I should give you my guitar to see you that happy forever…I just didn’t feel that happy as I should have or like you…
Instead I was happier to know that a guy who I thought was “firangi” had pani puri with me and a long night walk….yes! Prateek. you!…I felt happier at that moment than I was when I got my guitar….like I don’t understand why I feel happy in small things
But the best one is when I talk about all those small beautiful things and hang them on my memory frame….and smile and laugh with the one who helps me recollect them…Yes! Karthik its you! We always recollect how happy this day was and that day was….
I don’t know what’s wrong with me because who so ever I tell this state of my mind…I don’t know he/she just laughs at me and thinks I am mad…
I guess I am…but it makes me feel SO right…

Love
Love
Love
Love
Love

All the small things

Saturday, January 23, 2010
Life means:
A spring afternoon
Acoustic guitar
Songs about life

A winter evening
4 friends
Mild rain
4 pegs of vodka

100 bucks petrol
2 rusty old bikes
An open road

A hostel room
Maggi noodles
3:25am

3 old friends
3 separate cities
3 coffee mugs
1 yahoo messenger

A rainy afternoon
Eleven friends
Muddy ground
One football

One carton box
Two friends
Ride of a life time

2:50am
7 friends
Pizzas and toppings
Cartoon network

A wedding invitation
Suits up
Freaky thoughts
All night enjoyment

1 girl
1 phone no
10 friends
A fight

1:40 am
Scary movie
Blanket
Chanting prayers

Converse
Guitar and amp
Small stage
Friends as fans

1 tree
1 boyfriend
Holding hands

No sleep
12:45am
A phone call

3 phones
3 cities
conference

Candles
Balloons
Cakes
A surprise party

1 park bench
1 girl
1 proposal
1 yes

4 books
1 preparatory leave
10 duffers

Winter morning
Warm water shower
Wrapping in towel
Feelings forever

1 girl
Pulling her pony
Grinning
Feelings of touch

Late night
1 person
Honest conversation
A long walk

College
Attendance
Laugh at professors
Bunk

Result declaration
1 teacher
Fighting Tears
Struggle for marks

A birthday party
Cakes
Gifts
Loaded with food

Beach walk
2 gola’s
Sand castle
Photographs

A Tuesday evening
10 bucks
1 stall
Pani puri

1 beautiful girl
100 lovers
Her 1 big brother
2 dogs

A summer afternoon
Shorts and tanks
Lemonades
A big swimming pool

A breakup
Lodes of tears
Tones of friends
A breakup party

Sudden party
An empty fridge
Two slices of bread
Jam

1 date
15 friends
Question sessions

2 pair of eyes
1 glance
2 smiles

Everyday late wake up’s
Running to bathroom
Breakfast table
Cereals, eggs and milk

School
Sleep in lectures
Scribbling on desks
Paper planes

Divorce
Bunch of friends
4 wall’s room
1 paint box

Sleep
Alarm
Snooze
Sleep

Chilly night
Good thoughts
Socks
1 blanket

In the middle of work
A movie
Popcorn box
Coke

Totally bored
1 mirror
Reflection
Silly faces

7pm
Growling stomach
Tangy soup
Twisting tongues

30 bucks notebook
6 bucks refill
2 bucks pencil
Incomplete homework
Priceless happiness

Lying on bed
Watching rain
Drop by drop
Beautiful thoughts

Short of cash
Old torn Jeans
Pockets
A penny

Holding hands
Walking to class
Kindergarten

1 neighbor
1 blank call
1 door bell ring

Banging the door
Music up loud
Screaming
Jumping

Sleepover
Pajamas
Pillow fight
Stuffed toys

Missing someone
Standing in the balcony
Staring at stars
Exchanging feelings

Crazy days
Tons of fights
Loads of crushes
College life

Best friends forever
Secrets to grave
Exchange of goodies
Photographs to save

Exam hall
Tick tock
Mind block
Pens stop

Reading the sms received
Replying to sms
Reading the sms sent
Reading the sms received before
Again and again

1 washroom
Hiding from friends
1 chocolate bar

Yahoo messenger
Invisible mode
Waiting for someone
Visible mode

8 guys
1 binocular
A fight
Girl’s hostel room

1 closet
Tons of clothes
Sad face
Nothing to choose

1000 bucks
A sale
Group of friends
Shopping

An accident
Lots of get well soon wishes
Flowers and candies
Kiss on the forehead

1 P.C.
Parents behind
Switching tabs
Start + spacebar + M
Alt + F4

A date
Calling of friends
Exchange of clothes
Long gossips

No occasion
Fried chicken
3 friends
A boring conversation

1 puppy
1 kiss
2 dogs
Scram and run

1 lie
1 friend
Stutter and stumble
Puked truth

1 rock show
2 tickets
Tight jeans
Head banging

1 cell phone
1 number
1 name
Starring again and again

1 ipod
Songs on shuffle
Running in circles

1 mall
4 friends
Hide and seek

1 picnic
17 friends
Only food…food
And food


I love to enjoy all these moments…they are small but still they bring lodes of happiness to me in my life…
I love everyone who has made these small moments in my life so amazing…

<3
Mmmmmmmuuummmm!
Muaaaahhhzzzz!

mynds-eye

Today I just wanna be me and honestly I wont try to make much sense coz I don’t know how to describe this feeling inside me…so I am just putting up some random thoughts which are running currently in my mind….
Ive been through a lot last year and I hope that this year brings me with something I could cherish…I wanna be me and stay happy….if you ask me honestly, what I want in my life….i will close my eyes and I will just see nothing….i don’t know…I certainly keep on saying this to everyone that I am going to do engineering and become an engineer and I will work 9 to 5 and earn a living….but that’s not what I want…I don’t know exactly what I want…I just want to do something which I am good at…I don’t even know what I am good at…
Some people are special and are gifted with either genius brain, artistic hand, glamorous body, sweet voice…and so many more…
Now when i stand in front of the mirror…I look at myself….i see nothing special in me….and just to cheer myself or to make myself happy, I end up making silly faces at the mirror…I try to laugh and prove myself that I am happy but I just cant stand the fact that I try and make myself special where as im so not special….my effort is a waste because I am not meant to be special that’s the reason god didn’t give me any special quality…I am just a regular person and I don’t like being ordinary…I just wanna make a difference to everyone….i wanna be someone, the world remembers as GOOD…
But anyway imnt special and I guess I should stop making myself feel that way…
I don’t know… I have like, most of the things I want but there is something still missing. I don’t know what it is but I guess its there inside…I wish that it just comes outta me and I realize what I want, coz its long long long time now for me to know what it is…

Honestly, I always told this to my friend and trust me he didn’t believe me, maybe coz he was ten years elder to me…but whatever the case was…I always had this dream or something like that…like even if I am sitting, my thoughts lead me to this picture… I don’t know…I see a river which has a wooden bridge, pretty old and nearly to break…the water in the river is all black maybe because the moon dosnet provide much light to the dark night….the wooden bridges railing is all wrapped with yellow LED’s and it’s a beautiful night….then all of a sudden I am standing on that bridge in something black which has a hood and my face is barely seen through my hair…I hear the clock strikes and waters noise only…I see two paths on each side of the bridge.
one path has a city linked with happiness as it looks…lights everywhere, all decorated atmosphere, fresh air, guys holding girls and taking care, kids singing happy songs, birds singing, colourful buildings, people generous to each other, some people stay in the house like forever and sad too…its like that whole place is filled with happiness and sadness both…but in the end before one dies its either happiness or sadness in his arms.
On the other side of the bridge I see no light…everyone in black clothes walking all alone…they don’t eat probably and just hide their face under their hood or by their hair or always bow and walk…its not about the looks or anything…its about…I guess…its like…they don’t need anyone and they are just living by themselves…they are not happy but they are not sad either…they are just some walking souls…walking all alone….they are all satisfied and they don’t even look at each other….its all silent there….
Suddenly I see the bride breaking down and I have to choose my way…I am standing all alone and I don’t know which way to go…im crying out for help but no one hears my voice…I am all messed up and I don’t know where to go, what to choose, what to be, what is right, what I see is true and so many other unanswered questions…
With a flash, I always get outta that picture or dream and I cannot actually see where I end up going…I know I go somewhere and save myself from drowning but I never see where…I always wanna know where I end up going maybe coz I don’t know what I want in this life of mine…so I guess I don’t end up seeing where I go…

Sitting in a corner whenever I think of something I want…trust me, i try so hard to think but all I end up is wid…”whatever I am doing…it is gonna lead me to the path where it has led zillions of other people” …I certainly have this feeling that it is defiantly not what I want…I guess I am just way too weird to have such thoughts and dreams….like on this planet why only me? I wonder…
I want to know what I am looking for…I want to know which way I am going to go and stay happy…I want to know if somebody is watching me out…I want to know if someone can accompany me or not…I want to know what is missing…I want to know the purpose of my living...i want to know what I have to do…I wanna know where to start from…I wanna know what is real…I wanna know why I get such dreams…I wanna know who is me…I wanna know what feels right and what dosnet…I wanna know everything…just everything.
I wish someone or something or whatever it is could just tell me what’s the truth and what I am here for…and stop haunting me with incomplete mind's eye.