"WHY"

Life is short, is it? I wonder how. Since we meet so many people everyday and learn so many things and trust me its long and very long atleast for a human to find answers to his/her questions. I have my own. Lets see how many are answered.

Often in life when we grow up we love our grandparents and when you are old enough to know what they mean to you…they leave you. Why? Same is with parents

In the journey of life we meet new people everyday. Some get real close in very short time span but as time passes by, why are we so taken for granted? Where do all those concerns fade away? Where does the daily conversation evaporate and go away leaving you with doing nothing but missing them.

When we are happy and we make promises we intend to keep, how come with time they fade away? Why are they often broken? If you weren’t sure if the promises wont be kept then why are they made? Why making the people loose their way?

What is care?

Who are friends?

You have some people sent to you by god’s in that particular period of time when you need serious help. You treat them as best friend or angel. But why do they stay for a while and then get other commitments and enroll in their life forgetting you. They leave you behind.

Why is it difficult to understand the youth by the parents and why cant the youth do things right enough to make elders understand that everything Is under control?

Why is everything like sand? When you want to feel it, you hold it and it keeps slipping down you hand and in no time they are gone. Its not a complain but why can people just stay forever. Why can best friends always be there as they had been before all the time? What is so difficult in this?

Why when we want to die so bad that it becomes so difficult to even find one single reason to live hard and still we survive and when will want to live and wish to never let the moment pass us by, within a blink of your eyes its all gone.

You often fall in love with people who mesmerize your soul and like seasons they are gone. All the feelings are like capsules which come with expiry dates. Why cant people just love and love and care and be together forever? Why is it so difficult to work things out? Why waiting due to ego is never breaking the silence? Why conversation becomes so difficult to be conducted? Why every time spent together is forgotten?

When time passes, why do people change? When one cries the other one becomes heartless? Why do people kill? Why are we being judged? Why are we compared? Why are we distinguished? Why do all the expectations turn out to be the biggest fault? Why trusting people become a punishment? Why is everyone so cruel? Where is peace and love gone? Why is every simple thing turned into a complex thing. Why is everyone so heartless?

To every human, Quit smoking this year with nicorette!

This Year Quit SMOKING with Nicorette.
we breathe the same AIR!
Thank You!

Nicorette is a brand of chewing gum designed as a smoking cessation aid - it is not the name of this category of products. I would call the overall category 'smoking cessation aids' or 'nicotine based smoking cessation aids' or something like that. Commit is the lozenge form of this product. These products are made with 'nicotine polacrilex' which is a purified (extracted or synthesized - I'm not sure) form of nicotine which is easy to adsorb through the mouth. I don't know much about what is in 'the patch' (nicoderm), but my comments below apply to 'the patch' as well.

These products ('nicotine based smoking cessation aids') work because they give a smoker their 'fix' of nicotine while they stop smoking. However, there is a behavioral and psychoactive component to nicotine addiction. Thus, smokers are addicted to nicotine but also have years of performing the physical acts of smoking which become habit - the hand to mouth ritual, the coffee/newspaper ritual, the regular break with co-workers, etc. Thus, smokers have to kick their nicotine addiction AND re-arrange the associated behaviors. These products work by letting smokers deal with re-arranging those behaviors while giving them a convenient format to slowly wean off the nicotine habit.

The relative importance of the psychopharmacological/behavioral aspects of the smoking experience may have something to do with how successful use of these 'nicotine based cessation aids' will be for an individual smoker.

If a smoker becomes addicted to one of these 'nicotine based smoking cessation aids' the net effect would probably be greatly beneficial for the smoker anyway. Nicotine has some cardiovascular problems (and is toxic in high doses) - it's main is evilness lies in it's addictive properties. I'm not even sure if nicotine itself is carcinogenic - but PLENTY of other stuff in tobacco is. So - developing a habit with nicotine gums/lozenges isn't great, but I would wager that it certainly safer than smoking.

asphyxiated

Its been long since I have felt something different from my heart that I could write about. Besides exams and everything I had a busy schedule so not much out here.

Well today I really felt like writing. Its like all of a sudden. I turned on my t.v, don’t know after like how many ages and saw another movie. Well it brought out a lot of my memories and faults but well…I really think its…its kinda wrong on god’s part.

Like when people want to die, they should get all d serious diseases on this planet and all the tough times so that they commit suicide. But what is the fault for millions of those people who don’t want to die but are caught in a web where they just cant help but die.

I never thought that people want to live. I really don’t see any reason today I am living. I really am doing something I am so not into. I am with people who so are not from my league. I have a life which is almost boring and I have personally nobody to share things with. I know if you have read all my blogs by now you would know my metamorphoses from a small town girl to an undefined human. Nobody knows me and nobody knows whats possibly going in my head. I myself don’t know. So well yeah my best friends are fine and they are still with me but I think I have grown a little responsible and more of an introvert. Well I am planning to stick to that and most importantly I would work on not letting people know that I aint sharing. With a girl like me who speaks so much and straight forward its getting to hard these days. Its like I am standing in the pouring rain on a chilly night and telling myself that I can bear the pain until I go numb and I die.

Well so the movie, I saw this female lead saying words like “people who do want to live are forced by nature to die and people who don’t want to live commit suicide. I have been insane at this suicide thing when I got less marks in math and had a severe break up. I tried a lot of shits but honestlt it didn’t work and hell yea I am bloggin so it so proves.
What I always wanted was not to be and outstanding star or popular or a rock star or some brilliant or genius kid or even a princess. In reference to my green red frock’s blog, I think I kind of lived a part of it pretty well but again I landed up doing mistakes.well the last entire year I didn’t cut as per my resolutions but its like this temptation and I feel like doing it. My parents love me and so do my friends and family but that isn’t an enough reason I find to stay alive. I really don’t think it’s the thing for me. This place is so not for me. What is it interesting about…music, books, love, friends… I think I have had all of those good plus bad experiences before and really I don’t see a point I should be living for.

So what is the point I am looking forward that could make me live… I don’t want to be some rock star or a super good engineer. Woha inoway. I just want to be me and that me would be doing something I like which is honest and which is fun to do and for me comes a little easy than other things. I want to enjoy it and do it with great passion. I am 20 and yet am hunting for a reason to live. Isn’t that too much. Nobody understands that its not my work. I don’t have somebody I am looking for and neither my grades getting any better and nor I am interested in doing it. What reason am I left to survive for. The population is growing large and I am a burden. Its like I am lost in neverland. Its like a don’t know what I am doing but its defiantly not what I want to do. I don’t enjoy myself and I don’t even do good things to myself anymore. Once I was that girl who did things which she liked and trust me had no keep terms KT and no problem in life. Those days I used to smile, stay happy, got great friends to share things with, I love sharing ..you know that …all I can do is scream to the world and give it all away and stay appy in myself and now its like I am stuck with things all across my head and honestly I don’t see forty winks of any help or any such halo of hope that things will be okay. Everything around me is messed up. I took a bloody course that make me cry to bed daily planning how to tell my parents I cant do it if only they’d understand. I just don’t wanna do this anymore.i don’t want to see anyone any more and just hate this whole world around me, the atmosphere of great torture pulling me down in chains and locking me up in a cage and you know what I am crying out for help but there is no one to save me. In my head I see only bunch of orange and green lights with long dark stripes which just keeps on coming and going every now and then with the whole weird pattern revolving around my eyes. I need to LIVE okay. I want to live my life could somebody just take me in. I just don’t want to do this anymore. I am not killing myself anymore provided you let me have my way. Why nobody on this planet trusts me or puts me to sleep in when I cry every night? Why the whole world seems to be against me in this. Can I just fly please? Why have everyone clipped my wings and always make me realize the fact that I should be greatful to everyone that they haven’t cut them down. It feels like the least space I have to move or breathe. Its seems like the baby in a mom’s womb has got much more space to move that me. I suffocate, stutter, stumble and fall again and again in everything I do. Nothing ever falls into place and honestly I am sick of trying. No metal isn’t any help and nor anyone those dumb lame drinks or drugs because I think they can do no help. I had a remedy but hell yeah people think that’s lame and I am insane and It makes me looks ugly. Give me a reason bloody reason what could be uglier than the fact that I am nobody and I am looking for something I cant have. Lie, steal, beg, cry, dope, drink, runaway, bite, suicide…..what what what the hell on this planet could I do that save me from this world of perfection and forced living.

On top of all things I am going through damn people come and give me the shit that I should live because others who want to cant. Its nature’s mistake okay not mine.
I didn’t ask them to kill others who want to live. I just ask for those reasons that would make me want to live. And honestly friends and parents are not enough. They can buy you short time happiness.., only the work you do from your heart and success you get in it is the reason to live. The challenges and I right people. Apparently I have none of those. So hell yeah please take me away. I want to breathe and stop choking.

Would someone please buy me life?

The awesumest Barney Stinson!

The best video I've seen in 5th season...


A Must watch!
And do suit up while watchin! :p

A mother can do anything for her child

I saw this female travellin wid me @Mumbai local's, very tired and she has 2 boy kids...Both cryn 2 d core and this female so xhausted got no place in d speeding train, heavy pourin rain and packed compartment rocking her baby to sleep. Later her other kid comes and they all lie together and the mom keeps them covered and wrapped in their arms protecting them from public shoes stamps!

Hats off to Mothers who do everything to make their children safe and happy!
:)

Avie!

WISH!

As every1 of you know I’m so talkative…hahaha…I can talk about things I like, things I so dislike, things in general and things randomly no1 understands…I can talk talk and talk and trust me in a loud pitch without any energy supplement…Beat that..ahan! Mostly I like to talk about My World….be it twitter, myspace, blogs, facebook, textz and IMz…I am so an open book baby! But 2de im gonna write about a small word which means a lot to every1 even when sum1 is happy and even whn sum1 is sad….During happiness you want it 2 last 4ever like it is…and when Sad you want things to change 2 happiness….In the end you Want, be it a change or stability…You WISH things to stay the happy way or get better…But every1 WISHES…. Wish depends upon people to people…Beggers wish for money, poor people wish for 2wice a day’s meal, illiterate wishes for knowledge, farmers for good yield, people suffering from AIDS wish 4 a miracle, Old people wish not to die and watch theirs next ++ generations, Girls in the rural areas wish for freedom, a business man wishes for Profit ++, every1 wishes for wisdom and money in short….. Some people wish for life…The reason maybe a non-terminating disease or lost faith, it maybe some human or some strong principles, it can be a missing body part or unbearable sufferings of one’s loved…A tear in every1’s eye maybe be there but various reasons…. fighting the truth and wishing for a miracle….Even if a girl goes through the worst situations in her life that she has no option except death she should once think of the one’s who r craving to live…I don’t say life gives you what you want or is good or even worth living….but giving it a try is not bad! Like one thinks of trying vodka, cigars, drugs, girls/guys, love , unsuccessful attempts…You should try life once with all d love and positivity inside…Trust me I have tried…It’s hard but not impossible…Still if life doesn’t work out the way you want then its up2 you! Many people wish for clothes, my younger sister when asked to wish, she wished for a t.v. in her room…hahaha..different people different wishes….some want to change school, class, parents, hostel, husband, teachers, houses and always wish for a better one…Every1 who wishes for himself/herself always wishes for better and best… But do the wishes really come true??? I wont count Luck as a factor here….just a little voice in my head says…the wishes are all recorded in a long wish book ….every1 every second makes a wish and everything is recorded her…but the so many people wish so many things and only 1 wish provider, it cant fulfill all the wishes at that very time…So the wishes which come with the expiry dates get exhausted and never fulfilled if it doesn’t reach the wish provider’s knowledge and the rest are still being processed and many processed….I don’t know who wishes what but a standard wish is always a smile on a person’s face…A joker cries from within but makes every1 in audience smile…FYI I am not a joker but I would like to make every1 smile…whenever I could and whatever I can haan…. So a free hug with hilarious video for every1 down to smile at… Guys I wish, you wish and every1 wishes…No matter if it is a gin, shooting star, wishing well, or a still empty pot…It’s just the belief…not the thing u look at and wish… This blog is just based upon the song AIRPLENES with the most b’ful lines… “Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars…I could really use a wish right now, wish ryt now, a wish right now!” I wish all the people who want to live…their wish should come true. The poors and depressed people’s wish should come true… I wish PEACE would wrap our planet like a blanket so thay every1 stays warm and loving! This one is for the people who are under depression and stopped smiling due to the worst things encountering them.
And this is for all the kids suffering from hunger, un-curable diseases and lost hope!

I hope that your wishes come true… Love Avie XOXO The worst conditions where humans wished: http://www.funonthenet.in/forums/index.php?topic=116940.0 http://phukettsunami.blogspot.com/ http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/s/survivor5.htm http://www.cry.org/ http://www.coolantarctica.com/Antarctica%20fact%20file/science/global_warming.htm http://www.countercurrents.org/gathia090708.htm

~Change~

Felling warmth under my blanket, lyin on my bed....The new me...Sometimes i wonder how many times i change myself for good...hahaha..feels i was so bad...but No it aint like that....I just go thru various xperiences and weirdo things in my life...so many things in life are confusin gawd....esp when its about what humans around u look at you and think...
Wohhaa! A new smell in the air...maybe its my new perfume...hahaha...not really its just my change...Metamorphosis...
Past 2 months i didnt blog...Honestly not coz i was busy....it was coz i was confussed and i needed time to make my life trouble free and my mind empty with the wrongs....
Changes~
Studies:
Hahaha! well dis sem like other sems i worked hard but destiny...wooops!lets not talk about it....i believe in karma..oh yea...whatever i'll get i accept but dis tym i studied in a different way...it was different..yeah! it was...lets see if this works....Changes u c...
I sometimes wonder what i read neva cums iin xam or mayb sum sorrta craps in paper or lucky or wodever...All i knw 2de, after metamorphosism is that wodever i do i wont waste time and give what i can....and rest i'll take it the way i get and it comes...2 much think makes things worse...Everything has 2 happen which i write everyday in my life in different ways...so lets just take it that way and move forward...Yup! +ve! and it feels good!
Relationships:
This one ive never been so concrete and clear in mah head ever....I have realized a lotta things...I meet a new person everyday and we talk and becum gud friends easily and thn if both r single it feels like maybe....
but honestly its not the maybe...its just imfactuation or crush or wodever but definatly not love at all....how do i knw dat...I meet so many people and i wonder always maybe...and the other person also thinks maybe...but the thing is i never get that feeling wid sum1 like i had b4...and dats the point whn i sud relaize or now i realize that v ver just gud frnds and if v had tat clarity we wud still be friends...the worst if that if i like sum1 i go tell that person coz im true and i speak my mind all the time but this calls out 4 trouble in dis vcase coz the other person thinks i love taht person...when i say i like u for long or ive been looking at u or checkin u out doesnt mean tat i love u ...it just means u r in my mind and u cross my mind frequently and that u r a real gud friend...if i wud have feelings i wud just go and tell u maybe it worth living wid u coz ive started 2 have feelings...so ryt now i am so not a confuzed person and tat i think i am happy 2 realize the fact that i will w8 4 d ryt 1 i actually have feelings 4 rather than just going out wid ny1...just coz its fun and i smile...duh!
Music:
listenin 2 em a lot dese days and i kinda like almost all genrez...im pracicyn warmups and many exercyzez 2h and i guess i bcum a lil more serious


to be continued...in hurry will be back