WISH!

As every1 of you know I’m so talkative…hahaha…I can talk about things I like, things I so dislike, things in general and things randomly no1 understands…I can talk talk and talk and trust me in a loud pitch without any energy supplement…Beat that..ahan! Mostly I like to talk about My World….be it twitter, myspace, blogs, facebook, textz and IMz…I am so an open book baby! But 2de im gonna write about a small word which means a lot to every1 even when sum1 is happy and even whn sum1 is sad….During happiness you want it 2 last 4ever like it is…and when Sad you want things to change 2 happiness….In the end you Want, be it a change or stability…You WISH things to stay the happy way or get better…But every1 WISHES…. Wish depends upon people to people…Beggers wish for money, poor people wish for 2wice a day’s meal, illiterate wishes for knowledge, farmers for good yield, people suffering from AIDS wish 4 a miracle, Old people wish not to die and watch theirs next ++ generations, Girls in the rural areas wish for freedom, a business man wishes for Profit ++, every1 wishes for wisdom and money in short….. Some people wish for life…The reason maybe a non-terminating disease or lost faith, it maybe some human or some strong principles, it can be a missing body part or unbearable sufferings of one’s loved…A tear in every1’s eye maybe be there but various reasons…. fighting the truth and wishing for a miracle….Even if a girl goes through the worst situations in her life that she has no option except death she should once think of the one’s who r craving to live…I don’t say life gives you what you want or is good or even worth living….but giving it a try is not bad! Like one thinks of trying vodka, cigars, drugs, girls/guys, love , unsuccessful attempts…You should try life once with all d love and positivity inside…Trust me I have tried…It’s hard but not impossible…Still if life doesn’t work out the way you want then its up2 you! Many people wish for clothes, my younger sister when asked to wish, she wished for a t.v. in her room…hahaha..different people different wishes….some want to change school, class, parents, hostel, husband, teachers, houses and always wish for a better one…Every1 who wishes for himself/herself always wishes for better and best… But do the wishes really come true??? I wont count Luck as a factor here….just a little voice in my head says…the wishes are all recorded in a long wish book ….every1 every second makes a wish and everything is recorded her…but the so many people wish so many things and only 1 wish provider, it cant fulfill all the wishes at that very time…So the wishes which come with the expiry dates get exhausted and never fulfilled if it doesn’t reach the wish provider’s knowledge and the rest are still being processed and many processed….I don’t know who wishes what but a standard wish is always a smile on a person’s face…A joker cries from within but makes every1 in audience smile…FYI I am not a joker but I would like to make every1 smile…whenever I could and whatever I can haan…. So a free hug with hilarious video for every1 down to smile at… Guys I wish, you wish and every1 wishes…No matter if it is a gin, shooting star, wishing well, or a still empty pot…It’s just the belief…not the thing u look at and wish… This blog is just based upon the song AIRPLENES with the most b’ful lines… “Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars…I could really use a wish right now, wish ryt now, a wish right now!” I wish all the people who want to live…their wish should come true. The poors and depressed people’s wish should come true… I wish PEACE would wrap our planet like a blanket so thay every1 stays warm and loving! This one is for the people who are under depression and stopped smiling due to the worst things encountering them.
And this is for all the kids suffering from hunger, un-curable diseases and lost hope!

I hope that your wishes come true… Love Avie XOXO The worst conditions where humans wished: http://www.funonthenet.in/forums/index.php?topic=116940.0 http://phukettsunami.blogspot.com/ http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/s/survivor5.htm http://www.cry.org/ http://www.coolantarctica.com/Antarctica%20fact%20file/science/global_warming.htm http://www.countercurrents.org/gathia090708.htm

~Change~

Felling warmth under my blanket, lyin on my bed....The new me...Sometimes i wonder how many times i change myself for good...hahaha..feels i was so bad...but No it aint like that....I just go thru various xperiences and weirdo things in my life...so many things in life are confusin gawd....esp when its about what humans around u look at you and think...
Wohhaa! A new smell in the air...maybe its my new perfume...hahaha...not really its just my change...Metamorphosis...
Past 2 months i didnt blog...Honestly not coz i was busy....it was coz i was confussed and i needed time to make my life trouble free and my mind empty with the wrongs....
Changes~
Studies:
Hahaha! well dis sem like other sems i worked hard but destiny...wooops!lets not talk about it....i believe in karma..oh yea...whatever i'll get i accept but dis tym i studied in a different way...it was different..yeah! it was...lets see if this works....Changes u c...
I sometimes wonder what i read neva cums iin xam or mayb sum sorrta craps in paper or lucky or wodever...All i knw 2de, after metamorphosism is that wodever i do i wont waste time and give what i can....and rest i'll take it the way i get and it comes...2 much think makes things worse...Everything has 2 happen which i write everyday in my life in different ways...so lets just take it that way and move forward...Yup! +ve! and it feels good!
Relationships:
This one ive never been so concrete and clear in mah head ever....I have realized a lotta things...I meet a new person everyday and we talk and becum gud friends easily and thn if both r single it feels like maybe....
but honestly its not the maybe...its just imfactuation or crush or wodever but definatly not love at all....how do i knw dat...I meet so many people and i wonder always maybe...and the other person also thinks maybe...but the thing is i never get that feeling wid sum1 like i had b4...and dats the point whn i sud relaize or now i realize that v ver just gud frnds and if v had tat clarity we wud still be friends...the worst if that if i like sum1 i go tell that person coz im true and i speak my mind all the time but this calls out 4 trouble in dis vcase coz the other person thinks i love taht person...when i say i like u for long or ive been looking at u or checkin u out doesnt mean tat i love u ...it just means u r in my mind and u cross my mind frequently and that u r a real gud friend...if i wud have feelings i wud just go and tell u maybe it worth living wid u coz ive started 2 have feelings...so ryt now i am so not a confuzed person and tat i think i am happy 2 realize the fact that i will w8 4 d ryt 1 i actually have feelings 4 rather than just going out wid ny1...just coz its fun and i smile...duh!
Music:
listenin 2 em a lot dese days and i kinda like almost all genrez...im pracicyn warmups and many exercyzez 2h and i guess i bcum a lil more serious


to be continued...in hurry will be back

I am A wonderful Human!

Now everything in life comes with time… if you go grab it within time…its yours…else its gone keep you wondering why…
Life is weird…when we over estimate ourselves we get nothing…and like me if u underestimate yourself, you again get nothing…But how do you know which is the level you are at…
My best friends and my mom always say that I take things negatively and that I always underestimate myself…well they were right. A message from my best friend one night changed my thinking…Like a selfish pig I always want her to stay with me and be by my side….so I agreed to do what she suggested me to…She is never wrong and her 6th sense is SO never wrong…Whatever she’s been telling me from past 8 months just came true…Anyways, I never believed her coz I never thought I was good enough or positive in thinking…
Something’s in the past few weeks were good as well as bad… Now I honestly don’t know what I thought was wrong or right…I hide my emotions is true and I am okay with it….Well wait a minute I guess not…I have realized that…but I am still wondering and working upon it…if I should let it show or not…
Sometimes you want something and you hope it would be with you with time…or maybe you hope that the things may go the way they are without any disturbance and the moment going on could last long enough to make things strong for it to last longer in future. Most of the people don’t think that way and hence that moment crashes with needs and falls apart, leaving us with nothing…
When the things you hate the most revolves around you to make you feel worse again and again…the pain inside starts to fade away or maybe we get use to it and feel numb... I am in such a situation right now… Everything in my life now, honestly SUCKS….nothing is falling into place….I am in a total lost situation….Like even if you are having a single problem or two is okay but in my case I am bombarded with at least 12-13 problems now… All the things I wanted, want and will want have slipped away… I have had dreams of all my 13 problems to be fulfilling but some friends broke the trust, some people didn’t approach, some figures went wrong, time wasn’t right, I haven’t put in much effort, chose wrong people, chose wrong ways, kept things inside and a lot more… The worst problem…which is not a problem but a wound perhaps is a three story mixed in one…1 person knows 2 stories and the other 2 know all the 3 stories… Now why on this planet God is so unfair so let 2 people know 3 stories and the one who should know the 3 stores knows only 2 of them…..1 person is innocent, 1 is sacrificing and the other one too cunning…Whatever!

After like so many problems which are “actual problems”, the real ones and not the ones I make up for myself…. I am seriously tired of sulking, crying, hurting, cutting, attempting suicide etc… No one cares honestly and the biggest truth is that the people or the things you do it for, don’t even give a damn. So why punishing myself…? I never punish myself for others but for my mistakes. I wonder why do I even care for the things that matter the least. Ah maybe that is me… So after my best friends text message and my zillion of genuine problems… I didn’t hurt myself… Yes I cried thrice and had a low day too but when you tell everything to your best friends and you mom, everything feels okay… they support you and show you the right way… They help you get out of such situations which are of course too hard to do but you have to do it, no choice is given…
For the first time in my life I felt that I am a nice person and that I have so many people who love me coz they see the true me, who I am…. I am a nice person and that I have never realized it before. I do understand things and act like a grown up nowadays…. I hide my actual emotions and pretend to be happy…. At least for a while I make people happy, divert myself from the negative things happening in life and think positive. My best friends and my mom are proud of what I have done… I actually turned out to be a true human today who sacrifices and compromises and smiles in pain… I have a few best people in my life and maybe that’s why I am tested again and again. I am proud of myself for what I have done and trust me it feels so much better now, kinda guilt free…And for the first time, I’m so happy for the person I am today. I feel lucky to be born as a human.

I thank the universe creator for everything!

The story behind the the whole thing which made me a good person will be comming soon! ;P

...Save Tigers...

In an effort to save the remaining tigers in India, the Indian conservation group Tiger Trust (TT) has begun to work to help the tigers in India's Kanha and Bandhavgarh tiger reserves.

Currently, India's tiger population is being seriously threatened by poaching and territory loss. Many traditional medicine markets require tigers, and the growing population of people and cattle in India are taking over land that had been formerly occupied by tigers.

Though there were once as many as 150,000 tigers in the world, there are now only about 4,000-5,000. Of the original eight species of tigers, only three are still in existence.

Today, there are about 2,500 of the Indian Royal Bengal tigers left. There are also 1,000 Indo-Chinese tigers, 300 Siberian tigers, 300 Sumatran tigers and 20 South China tigers.

As a result, the Indian tigers seem to be the most likely to survive in the future. However, it will even be difficult for them, and their chance of survival might be quite low.

Every day, one Indian tiger dies. If this rate of death is allowed to continue, all species of tigers throughout the world will be extinct by 2010.

To prevent this scenario, the Save-the-Tiger Campaign and Project Tiger have successfully created tiger reserves and convinced the Indian government to ban tiger hunting. In the longer term, the groups hope to educate the Indian people about the threat of the extinction of the tigers so that they can help to ensure the tiger's survival.

| My Soul Sings |

Back when I was in 7th grade. I still remember I was lying on my couch just feeling low for some reason. I wasn’t into listening to music much. And I felt that American music was dumb. I used to watch a show, POV on channel [V] which was hosted by Kim. I loved that show coz people from all parts of India used to send creative drawings; posters etc…and requested songs. It used to come everyday at 8pm I suppose. So that night I was changing channels and switched to POV. I saw a female running on an empty street, feeling all alone and asking for help from someone who could hold her and make her feel right…she didn’t know who he was but she was with him. That was the 1st song I ever liked and that was the day when I felt so connected to music. I just felt that girl was me for some reason, I don’t know. I just felt she was like me. I just felt so connected. That was Avril Lavigne’s, I am with you… That was the first ever feeling I had for music which made me feel connected and that’s how I started looking for her coz I knew that there was some connection. I knew nothing about her. I looked everywhere on the web and so many other places but I couldn’t find out who she was. All I knew was “I don’t know who you are but I, I’m with you”… Later in 8th grade I figured out it was Avril lavigne when I heard her new song ‘Don’t tell me’, which used to come everyday at exact 1:27pm on Mtv. I wrote her name down and began to check out her songs on web and that was the start of me and music. Today after years, I felt happy. I don’t know why I was happy. I just felt happy. I woke up at 6 and went to take shower. I washed my hair and I was feeling light. It always feels light when u remove thousands clips and extensions. I came out of the shower and stood near my wardrobe thinking of what to wear. I saw a yellow tee...now you must know I hate yellow…but I dragged it out and started to look at it. It was a tee on which all my school friends wrote things about me and drawings as a memory. I know the tee looks way too over loaded with so many words and pictures…but I love it…I never wore it before. I just felt like wearing it. Along with that tee I wore couple of old rings of mine and my old painted converse and my favorite levi’s jeans…I combed my hair which felt so light and all right…I applied some kajal…gulped milk…held a drawing book in my hand and left for college. I heard this song “Always” by Blink 182 in the train and I was behaving like a kid and I just felt so childish. I was singing that song whole day. I just don’t know why. I was singing it in my college canteen…everyone actually thought I was mad…I stood near the canteen mirror and started to make silly faces…it just felt right…I was just smiling and smiling and smiling…I didn’t let any of my friends speak or listen to anyone else…I just kept singing, dancing, jumping, irritating, pushing, pulling them…I just don’t know what made me feel so good. The whole day I irritated my classmates by singing lines that go like : lemme hold you… touch you… feel you… always, kiss you…taste you…all night…always.. The guy friends in my class are used to this weird behavior of mine but today I acted like a drunkard and they actually thought that I had lost myself completely. I doubt if I would have left somebody un-kissed if I would have heard that song for 5 more minutes. Hehehe… Later our jamming was canceled and that made me low. We already don’t have a bassist and our drummer and keyboardist went home. Anyways I kept my cool. I came back to my station and like always I was waiting for my mom to pick me up. She was late. I thought I’d walk. It had been a long time since I walked alone on the streets…So I started to walk without any aim of which way to go… A strange thing happened…I felt like I was in 7th grade again…my head felt light, the sun rays fell on my face…all I could see were my rings and drawing book in my hand…an almost half filled street…I didn’t see anyone I knew…all I could hear was the song which was being played on my phone. I was listening to ‘I’m with you’. In a 3 mins walk I lived that song…every word of it kept ringing in my head and I felt every beat of it matching to my footsteps…My hair falling on my face, blocking the street’s view. I don’t know I just felt I was looking for something and the search isn’t complete yet…For a moment I could hear nothing and see nothing which was moving around me. All I could hear was that song and see was my hair falling on my face. I was living each moment of that song. It was something which…just felt right.
My car's horn broke my thought process and I got in the car thinking, a few seconds and some few words wrapped up in some rhythm can make you feel just perfect no matter where you are. It can purify your soul and you don’t even have to put in any efforts… All it takes to get wrapped into the blanket of music is… some honest words, warm feelings and some tunes…and rest...your soul speaks…

The "V"

Almost twenty years now, I never knew what this huge “V” word is. I thought it was like some festival. I never knew rather I was least interested to know what it was. I never bothered. Like I should have cared what it was the last year but it didn’t feel anything different or special anyway. But hence I am in college it feels like knowing somethings like this one.
This year started with no crushes and no feelings. Honestly I didn’t want to have any crushes or feelings. Past experience was awful. Sometimes honestly I wanted to have feelings but I kept reminding myself that I didn’t want them and that they aren’t made for me. This year people actually thought that I had shook hands with my past and started spreading rumors which never took place and will never take place.


To all of my dear friends,
You should know I never swallow what I spit. I consider my self-respect first and I apply my brains than my heart. From the time I was born till the time now I have never got back to the things that I have left. It’s like ‘once gone’ implies ‘gone forever’, being it friends, relatives etc... So don’t think craps, assume craps, make craps, and circulate craps.
Thank you.

Now, college is a place where the least you can learn is the course subject and maximum you can learn is the love subjects. Since a drastic change has got into me. I have started looking around in college. I have started to take a glance around which I didn’t use to before. I sit at a staircase every morning recess, near artificial grass and look around. I find so many couples, nowadays free shows too. It’s so easy to make out who is behind whom, who loves whom, who all are going on, who hates who and who is like me. Well only my best friend in my college is like me in the entire college, at least in this matter for sure.
The Love story in my college goes like…
Some fell in love ragging kartay kartay
Some fell in love exam main copy kartay kartay
Some fell in love beauty dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love rose queen dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love make ups dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love answers detay detay (receptionist)
Some fell in love padhatay padhatay
Some fell in love last bench pe baithtay baithtay
Some fell in love kt lagaty lagatay
Some fell in love message kartay kartay
Some fell in love books uthatay uthatay
Some fell in love canteen main food share kartay kartay
Some fell in love phone call kartay kartay
Some fell in love gate pe khday hotay hotay
Some fell in love dance kartay kartay
Some fell in love games kheltay kheltay
Some fell in love staircase pe baithtay beithay
Some fell in love music bajaty bajatay
Some fell in love sports dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love clothes ke size dekhtay dekhtay
Some fell in love shape compare kartay kartay
Some fell in love bike aur scooty pe college atay atay
Some fell in love workshop main metal file kartay kartay
And so on…
Now what should I say. There is no reason you can’t fall in love at college. Even if you don’t have good people around you or even if you don’t want to fall in love… you will fall in love.

C = Contest = College = Canteen = Couples = Craps

Nowadays relationships are like contests. Everyone wants to win the trophy of being popular. Like Popular? WTF. But yes it’s true. Some love stories are too silly. I just smile and laugh at them. Some are serious. Some are the ones which get recycled. Some are the ones with no combination at all. Some are the true ones. Most of them are show offs. Some are all about beauty. Some are about sex and drugs. Some are made of each other. Some are never to last forever. Some are funny. Some are like “what?”. Some are like whatever and so many other types. You won’t believe how much crap I missed in the first semester. There are absolutely too many things to laugh at. I missed how dumb people can be and how lucky one can be.

Anyways. So this year is pretty good for the people around me and I am trying to make things pretty good with me too. Many rather most of my friends have got a valentine this season. It’s so nice to see them happy and away from the fear of upcoming results. Most of my friends have valentines who are their boyfriends/girlfriends. But what about the rest of my friends who don’t? They aren’t happy. Everyone wishes to have a valentine every season. But only a handful of them get the opportunity to have them. So I guess it’s not fair.

I, being an awesome person ( ;p ), am playing CUPID! Like I don’t have any other work in life, so out of boredom I am making everyone happy. So I predicted many couples and at least for a day they can be their valentines. Like valentines is not about sharing a relationship. It’s about sharing honesty, love, friendship and care. So why can’t someone be a person who is honest, friendly, loving and caring for a day. So I displayed my list of all the people who are my friends, paired them up for at least one day so that have a happy valentine this season. I hope everyone is asking the other person out and making their day special along with others. It feels so good when you make someone happy; at least it does to me. I want the whole world to be happy and loving to maintain peace and brotherhood.

You know what? I love you all. And I know you all love me too coz I am so awesome. Thank you! Thank you! So make me happy by staying happy and making others happy too.


A very warm huggiiee to everyone this valentines.
Happy Valentines to everyone in Advance!
*batting eyelashes*

BOREDOM

BASIC INFORMATION

Name: Pallavi
Birthday: April 26, 1990
Shoe Size: 6
Hair Colour: Jet Black
Eye Colour: Jet Black
Relationship Status: Single
Zodiac: Taurus
College: PIITE
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FAVOURITES

Colour: Navy Blue
Male Celebrity: Taylor Lautner i guess
Female Celebrity: Megan fox i guess
Shoes: CONVERSE(chuck taylor)
Book: anything by Chetan Bhagat
Sport: skateboarding, soccer, badminton and all kid-ult games
TV Show: HIMYM
Drink: Shakes!
Food: Pizza!
Gum: Orbit
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NAME SOMETHING THAT STARTS WITH

A: Avril Lavigne
B: Balloons
C: cartoon
D: Drama
E: Everton
F: Fall to pieces
G: Give me
H: Halo
I: Introduction
J: Joy
K: King
L: Leave
M: Me
N: Nevermind
O: Oouchie / oops!
P: Pallavi
Q: Quilt
R: Rascal
S: She
T: Trust
U: Underpants..what am i thinking???
V: Vocalist
W: Whatever
X: xerox
Y: Youtube
Z: Zoo

^these were the instant answers!
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FIRST PERSON YOU THINK OF

Food: Prateek
Fashionista: Neelakshi
Locker: Neethu
Tall: Nikhil
Short: Mohit
Fat: Loy
Gorgeous: Snigdha
Best Friend: both the k's
Silly: Me
Retarded: Mukesh
Blonde: Arayan
Fun: kshiraja
Cute: Richa
Hot: Shambhavi
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LOVE

Have a Crush: Yes... Changes everyday
Do they like you back: I dont know
Or are you in a Relationship Now: Nope
If Someone Likes You: ?
Prefer Tall or Short: Tall
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5..

5 FAVOURITE CELEBRITIES
1. Johnny Depp
2. Megan Fox
3. Avril Lavigne
4. scarlett johansson
5. Jim carrey

5 REASONS TO LIKE SOMEONE
1. Creative
2. Must wear a converse ;P
3. Head on straight
4. Caring
5. Fun

5 THINGS YOU FIND IN YOUR ROOM
1. Avril Lavigne poster
2. Candy (lots and hidden)
3. 2 Guitars
4. Diary (Hidden)
5. Laptop

5 THINGS YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT
1. Cell phone
2. Internet
3. Guitar
4. Converse
5. My blanket and socks

5 BEST SONGS
1. Fall to pieces-Avril Lavigne
2. With me-Sum 41
3. Going Under-Evanescence
4. Diary of Jane- Breaking Benjamin
5. BYe Bye Beautiful-NightWish
(^ currently)

5 BEST ARTISTS/BANDS
1. Avril Lavigne
2. Evanescence
3. Blink 182
4. Sum 41
5. Breaking Benjamin
(^currently)

5 BEST BRANDS/STORES
1. Aeropostale...my fav!
2. Levis
3. Lee Cooper
4. Chuck Taylor
5. Abbey Dawn
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QUESTIONS

1. Have an obsession? Avril Lavigne... ;)
2. Where do you plan to go this summer? I have my birthday coming up this summer..not planed anything yet.
3. What Month is it? Feb
4. Anything big coming up? Fucking Results
5. Why are you doing this? I needed to kill time
6. Like your parents? LOVE them!I guess!:)
7. Do you sleep with a teddy bear? I guess 12 of them and i make all of them sleep under my blanket....hehehehe! I know they wont get cold but still...
8. Do you eat when your nervous? YES!
9. Own a dress? Lots
10. Are you a fast typer? Yes... otherwise I wouldnt waste my time on this crap...i type crap BTW
11. Do you wanna have kids? When I am in my late TWENTIES, I would START considering adopting...else i would have kids, i guess if i find someone!
12. Who do you usually have Christmas dinner with? Myself Alone!
13. Who do you celebrate New Years with? Different EVERY year!
14. Where do you live? At my house
15. Have you made a cootie catcher in your younger years? I STILL make those when I am bored... lol
16. Plans this weekend? My friends have some Valentinez Day shopping...i guess i will tag along!
17. To your left is: a wall
18. To your right is: CPU
19. In your pocket is: Empty
20. Nervous about anything? Upcoming results
21. Scared of the Dark? Nope
22. Have any phobias? Nope..i guess!